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2011-01-05T21:12:00.000-06:00

The Holy Spirit of Giving

2010-12-22T19:30:00.005-06:00

The Spirit of Giving.

Let us look at the The ‘Spirit of Giving’. The Spirit of Giving is that which we Human Beings ‘get into’ within the ‘Christmas Holiday Season’ – wherein one ‘gets into the holiday spirit’ because it’s that ‘time of the year’ within which falls the holiday of Christmas – allegedly the celebration of Jesus’ birthday and so we Human Beings are apparently quite fond of Jesus Christ – enough that the whole World celebrates his birthday yearly. But really, as is quite obvious to most, the ‘holiday season’ is that season where we Human Beings Buy things for each other – because the holiday season is the time for ‘gift giving’ – ostensibly an act which symbolizes giving gifts to the newborn baby Jesus.

The Holiday Gift Giving time is a ‘Festive’ time – a time of ‘celebration’, wherein we Human Beings decorate our homes, our work places, celebrating this festive tradition of buying gifts for each other. And we Human Beings really enjoy buying gifts for each other. We enjoy ‘getting into the spirit of the holidays’, the ‘spirit of Christmas’, and going out into the malls, the shops, the stores, and spending our paychecks on quantities of assorted ‘gifts’ which we then wrap up and ‘give’ to specific people in our immediate world, those of us available to receive our gifts – our family, our friends, our coworkers – or even charities and donation boxes.

And why do we Human Beings like so much to give each other gifts? To buy and present each other with presents during this ‘festive time’ of ‘giving’? Because, when we go out and spend our money on items in the shop, specific items that we select with great care according to what we understand each of our friends and family members would want, and would enjoy to ‘have and hold and use for their very own’, and then we go home, wrap up those items and give them to the people we bought them for – what happens? A curious thing happens. We FEEL really good! We Feel really good because we Human Beings really like to give each other gifts! We feel good to know that we’ve been the one who gave something to another which in turn made that person feel good and enriched their experience of their life. And what is fascinating, is that the more Money we have at our disposal, to spend on gifts for others – the more fun we have and the better we feel as we go about our Holiday Shopping Spree – knowing there is little or no limit to our power to buy gifts and give them to people, and the more we give, the better we feel. The more money we have, the more our ‘cup runneth over’, the easier it is to get into the ‘Spirit of Giving’.

So, it appears that we Human Beings really love to Celebrate the Christmas Holiday – the Holy Day of Giving – but it also is quite obvious that this Holy Holiday of Celebration and Giving is not about giving gifts to Jesus at all, is not about the Biblical ‘God’, or Jesus or Holy Spirit – but rather is about the Real Holy Spirit, and the Real Sacrament of the Real God of this World. Because the real, One True God in this World is Money – because Money is that which is all around us - which determines all events in this World – Money is that which determines the entire Life Circumstance and Experience and Life Plan of each and every Human Being born into this World. We are not born into ‘God’s plan’ – we are born into a plan determined entirely by Money. And the Real ‘Blessing of God’ in this World is the Blessing of Income, the Blessing of Wealth – the Blessing of ‘Good Fortune’. And we take part in the Real Sacrament of our Blessing of Money whenever we Spend – indeed we perform Miracles with every Purchase – wherein we turn Money into food, Money into clothes, Money into goods, Money into homes. When we spend, we are stating to the world – Yea, I am one who walks in this World with the Grace of God, the Grace of Money.

Particularly during the Holiday Season, the Season of the ‘Christmas Bonus’ – wherein, when the Increment of our Income Increases through the Sacred Act of the Christmas Bonus Administered by the Administration we are employed with, we take part in the Holy Sacrament of Spending and Giving amongst the immediate, local Congregation of our fellow Human Beings. The holidays enable us to atone, to make reparations for any transgressions we may have made during the year. Through the Sacred Act of Spending and Giving we are able to Heal our Relationships, and Restore a Positive Image of ourselves in the Eyes of Others, in the Eyes of our fellow Congregation of those who walk with the Grace of God as Money in this World. Because, when one Spends and Gives, one feels good about oneself, and both the receiver of the Giving, and those who witness the Giving, feel good about the Spender as well. This is an example of how Spending and Giving Activates the Real Holy Spirit – which is the Feeling of elation that accompanies the possession of Money, the Spending of Money, and the Giving of Purchased Gifts.

And this Holy Spirit resides not just on holidays and celebrations, but year round within anyone who is fortunate enough to receive or walk with the Grace and Blessing of God as Money on a regular basis – which is those who have been Saved, or are in the Process of being Saved as either those with an existent Fortune of Savings, or those with a regular Income sufficient to make their cup runneth over many times throughout the year, enabling them to Feel More, Spend more and Give more, keeping the Holy Spirit of Money alive.

Here then, as we get to the point, is the question which must be asked – why, if we Human Beings so enjoy the ‘Spirit of Giving’, and so enjoy the feeling of the Holy Spirit of Money which is the feeling we get through regularly receiving God’s Blessing as Income – have we decided, that God’s Blessing should not be Equally received by All in this World?

Wouldn’t the ultimate act of doing God’s Work be to Unconditionally Give Equal Money to All from Birth to Death? So that none may go without God’s Blessing for even one day of their lives? So that none may go without the Holy Spirit of God coursing through them for even one day of their lives? Why do we believe that Money must remain ‘more than us’? Indeed why do we not End God as Money, and Stand as god Ourselves, and thus Give Ourselves the Power to Give Equally to All – so that All may enjoy a Life of Plenty, and a Life full to brimming with the Holy Spirit?

Some look at this proposition of Equality and call it heresy, blasphemy. Because most Human Beings in this world have been mislead to believe that the ‘God’ of the bible is the ‘real god’ and that he has a ‘plan’ and that this ‘plan’ is the ‘reason’ why some are fortunate and some are unfortunate in this world. Most have been mislead to believe that their role is simply to be thankful for their good fortune, and to enjoy God’s Holy Spirit for themselves, and to Give to Others only at specially appointed times – such as the ‘Holiday Season’. And Most have been mislead to believe that we as Human Beings must remain inferior, less than, unequal to God, and thus Unequal to Money – Money as that which is held to be a gift from the Biblical God, but which is fact the only Real God existent in this world - Money as the real practical God of this World – Money as the Real Life Blood of this World, Money as that which giveth and taketh away Life – wherein, when one is given money, one has Life – and when ones Money is taken away – so is ones Life taken away. Such Human Beings who Believe that it is not our place to take Responsibility for this Power to Give Life, who believe that it is not our place to stand As God and consider All Children of ‘God as Ourselves’ to be Worthy of Life, and to thus Endow All in this World with an Equal Share of Life – Such Human Beings are in fact the Real heretics, the real blasphemers, the real self worshippers, the real Satanists, the Real Deceivers, the Real Liars and the Real Evil of this World.

Because Such Human Beings claim to be living the Words of God - - claim to support ‘Giving’ while yet cursing Equal Giving - - such human Beings are only living the Words of those who exist as Fear of God, which is the Fear of the Loss of their Inferiority - they would rather worship and fear a god than to stand Equal with their World and thus be face with Responsibility - and those who exist only in the interest of their Own Fortune, their Own Self Interest – Such Human Beings are the Real Misers of this World – and such Human Beings are those who give permission for all the Misery in this World – through accepting that some must Have, and some must Have not – as they hold that to be ‘God’s Will’ – as ‘the biblical god ‘works in mysterious ways’.

This world, this Money System is not the 'mysterious' work of some biblical god, and when we are ‘giving’ within this system, we are not doing ‘the work of god’ as we believe, rather we are doing the work of supporting a system – a system which is but the work of Human Beings, who have made Money our God, and have accepted the ridiculous doctrine of Inequality and Competition that has been passed down to us generation after generation – the passing on of the Sins of the Father.

But consider this – in a World where Money is Given Unconditionally to All Equally, and wherein All exist in Plenty, and none ever go without for even one day – in such a World, where the Holy Spirit is made available to all Equally, we would no longer have to maintain the Holy Spirit through Spending and Giving as it exist in our world currently within the Institution of Capitalism, wherein we compete with each other to attain the Blessing and Grace of God as Money, wherein our Sole Purpose becomes that of attaining the Holy Spirit of Money and ensuring we are Saved from misery by a sufficient Savings Account Balance. Wherein we do not even question a system in which we must walk a Quest for Money.

How can anyone claim to walk with Grace in a world where billions are allowed to starve? In a World where we Believe that only some must have Money, and thus only some must have Life?

When we Give Equally to All, then we All Walk with Grace. When we Give Equal Money to All, we end Money as the Root of All Evil, because we end the fear and competition that is the root of all Greed, Corruption, Violence, Crime, Inequity and Destruction in this World. When we Give to All Equally, we take the first step toward Heaven on Earth – the first step toward a World of Celebration for All. If we but take the Step of Equal Money for All, and keep Walking in Equality, as God, Walking within taking the Responsibility of God, we will create a New World. Some of us are already Walking in Equality, already laying the Way for Heaven on Earth.

For those of us who are Walking in Equality, Christmas and the Holiday Season has become irrelevant, insignificant, pointless. Because we understand what Giving Really is – and have no interest in giving as an act of supporting a system of Inequality.

So, this Holiday Season, consider the ‘Spirit of Giving’ - and consider that no 'giving' really exist in a world where we do not Give Equally to All.

What is a Sociopath?

2010-12-15T18:48:00.000-06:00

Are You against an Equal Money System? Oneness power of One man One Vote!

2010-12-14T21:34:00.000-06:00

Free Enterprise Business Ventures

2010-12-14T00:23:00.000-06:00

A short discussion on 'Free Enterprise'.

Business and Enterprise is a function of a system of enslavement to survival through being forced to find / create ways to make profit.

Support the establishment of an Equal Money System to end the enslavement to 'profit making'

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Battlestar Galactica and The Cylons Part 1

2010-12-07T20:30:00.000-06:00

2010-12-07T02:21:00.000-06:00

obviously we will have a world of abuse as long as humanity believes it is a good idea to have billions of people all existing within multiple beliefs and opinions about themselves and everything and everyone they see and interact with -- and most opinions go unspoken and are deliberately kept secret so that no one actually sees the truth of each other and thus we have a world of liars and deceivers divided through personality and secrets - a laffing matter? remember divided we fall and only those who are self honest will be left laughing, free from regret

1 - The Secret of Atlantis -- Where is Atlantis? Annotations added D...

2010-12-05T08:21:00.000-06:00

Fiji Water Bottled CRIME Against Life

2010-12-03T00:19:00.000-06:00

People with money have hundreds of different types of water to choose from - while people with no money have NO ACCESS to water -- ACCESS DENIED!!

Obvious CRIMES against Life which must stop.
Research the Equal Money System to understand how we can, in a matter of years, implement a NEW system that actually supports everyone on Earth to Live effectively and with dignity, through ENDING the Criminal System of Capitalism.
Read the transcription of the NPR story here:
http://www.npr.org/2010/12/01/131733493/A-Bottled-Water-Drama-In-Fiji

Integrating Job Training Through Writing

2010-10-25T01:23:00.002-05:00

I've been at my new job for a few days now. The first couple of days was training - wherein we went over a lot of details of specific information / steps that need to be carried out on the job. Rather than try to remember everything with thinking, I found it far more effective to take what I just learned, and then - in writing - walk through the scenario of being at work, and clarify / see in writing each step that I am required to take. In essence I place myself 'at work' in writing, which is cool because I can see the points where I would stumble or be unsure of what to do -- and I thus write out and clarify for myself what I shall do in that situation instead of going to work and then just trying to remember what to do.

I found this an extremely effective way of integrating what I learned in my work training and preparing myself to actually face the 'real' scenario - this assisted in diffusing nervousness / uncertainty / anxiety about work. And no thinking is actually required.

It's effective to take something you've heard or been shown, and then write it out yourself wherein you actually walk through the information, and integrate the information as you are writing. In this you bring the information out of the mind so it's no longer floating around as thoughts / memories. Just as for instance the alphabet is not floating around in your mind as a memory --- you just know it because you have effectively integrated it.

Investigating the Equality Equation - part 1

2010-10-21T23:56:00.000-05:00

Investigating the Equality Equation - part 1 - by Matti Freeman

At the Desteni Farm in South Africa, Equality Research is being taken through to real Living Application - speaking specifically here with regards to research that is being done in relation to the Equal Money System - the World's first practical, workable solution to all the World's major economic, social, political, environmental and religious problems.

The Desteni Farm is home to a kibbutz currently in development as a working model of one of the many types of kibbutz's that will be created within the implementation of a new, global kibbutz system that will facilitate the production of food, technology and various other items and necessities that form the basic foundation of what each and every Human Being on Earth requires to not only fulfill our basic survival needs, but to become educated, effective beings with access to all the components of an enhanced life experience here on Earth.

The principle that is applied within the current research and development taking place at the Desteni Farm, and by those Desteni participants currently living and working in other countries around the world - is the principle of Equality and Oneness - more specifically, the Equality Equation within the principle of Equality and Oneness.

The Equality Equation is simple – and is the most practical way to see what is the best action for anyone to take within the context of this reality / this world / this Earth that we are all sharing.

All it takes is the consideration of all that is Here on Earth currently – Humans, Animals, Nature - and to see that we are all in essence Equal and One Here on Earth. Within this, one then applies the Equality Equation as 1+1=2 - - wherein one evaluates ones starting point within all that one accepts oneself to be, stand for, give permission for, believe in, want, etc - within all that one participates in within this world, day to day within ones life – within ones daily participations / interactions / thoughts / actions.

One looks at ones actions - ones physical participation in ones world - which is the same world shared by All as One as Equal - and within this ones starting point of 'who one is' which determines the actions one takes within ones life, and asks oneself: Am I equating what is best for All Here within my starting point of who I am and therefore within the actions I take? Will my actions always accumulate to what is best for all, within always equating what is best for all?

When ‘1’ as ‘The consideration of what is best for all parts of the Whole within equating each part of the Whole as All as One as Equal as Life as Myself within the context of what is Here’ is equal to ‘1’ as ‘My starting point of Who I am as a part of the whole, and the actions I take and will take based on my starting point’, then the outcome is ‘2’ as ‘Who I am / my actions will always accumulate to what is best for all, will always be Equal to what is Best for All, standing absolute / into infinity’

To identify where I am still existing / considering within self interest / separation, I simply apply the Equality Equation – to see if ‘who I am’ within for instance, how I am ‘living my life’ and ‘participating in my world’, is equating All as One as Equal as Myself (1+1+1+1+1, etc, equating all beings in existence), or is only equating ‘Me’ as ‘I’ as ‘1’(one) within separation as ‘Me+Me= Me only’ – or ‘1+1=1’.

To further explain -- one takes all that are here and equates all parts as 1+1+1+1+1+1+1…etc – all parts as Equal as the Whole, and stands AS all parts AS the Whole AS Self and within this is able to for instance, look at our world as it currently exists and see that the current world system / economic systems are NOT based on the Equality Equation of Equating what is best for all. It becomes obvious that the current world system / economic systems are based in Inequality – based on the disregard of parts of the Whole, where the system only serves and supports the interests of but a select few who hold the ‘power’ and ‘influence’ within the world system / economic systems, and those who are born into ‘fortunate’ circumstances, while the majority exist in lack, exploitation, starvation, poverty, enslavement – and this includes Animals and Nature as Equal Parts of the Whole – both of which are extensively abused, neglected, ignored, exploited within how the current world system / economic systems exist – which is actually how WE exist – because, common sense is that the system = us. We keep the system ‘alive’ through our participation, through continuously keeping the blood of the system as Money, flowing through continuously participating in the system from the starting point of total acceptance and allowance of the system, within believing that ‘it is just the way things are’, and ‘we are not responsible’.

When one as the individual in fact recognizes the principle that All are in essence Equal as the Whole and that thus ‘who I really am’ is actually here as everyone / everything as All as One as Equal as Myself, one then sees the extent of the abuse and limitation that currently exists ‘Within me, within myself as All as One as Equal as the Whole’. Within this, one is then able to begin applying the Equality Equation to oneself – to all that self currently exists as within the starting point of ‘who I am’ within thought, word and deed (action), within this world I find myself in.

Within this, Humbleness and Self Honesty is required – humbleness being ones capacity to remove / let go of / look past all self importance and ‘self knowledge’ and embrace unconditionality of consideration – Equality of consideration - to stand Equal as another – to place oneself in the shoes of another being and experience what that being is experiencing, and to within this consider what is here, how we exist here currently – to consider how that being’s circumstance / experience has come to exist / be created – to stand Equal with the abused, the suffering - and the abuser, the inflictor of suffering – and to within this remove all polarity / judgments / opinions one may have previously directed towards either the Abused or the Abuser – and to Stand Equal and One As Both the Abused and the Abuser – within realizing that each is part of the 1+1 of the Equality Equation – each is part of the Whole that I as All as One as Equal stand As – each is myself.

Part 2 to follow

Comments from: The Deception of Eckhart Tolle

2010-10-08T10:54:00.000-05:00

striderswoe wrote:
"Tolle speaks simple language, charges for it as we all would if we had the "get up and go" to do so ourselves. He connects us (the lay person) with the Buddhist philosophies (way of life) which make more sense than all the nonsense we hear throughout the mainstream religions, which poison us through abuse, control, fundamentalism and the rest of it.
We are human, animals like the rest of the tree swinging utans we hear Attenborough speak about, an a he'll of a lot more stupid I add. Just look"

Matti wrote:
language becomes simple when one takes self responsibility to apply self honesty and the consideration of what is best for all to the words one uses - to see what one directly and tacitly accepts and allows / gives permission to exist within self and within this world / existence as a whole through the accepted starting point of the definitions one is living

Equality Is The Unambiguous Solution

2010-10-07T16:40:00.000-05:00

poverty, starvation, polarity and 'just is'

2010-10-07T11:18:00.000-05:00

"hey I have a question about something you said:

" poverty and starvation is not negative - it is only 'negative' in the mind as an accepted and allowed definition based in fear - where one then creates a 'positive' in the mind and desires to experience 'the positive' --- thus the positive is based in fear"

ok, so if poverty and starvation is not negative (or positive ) as it is only 'negative' in the mind, then I think you would agree that it is valid to say that poverty and starvation just IS.

but then why try to change something which just is (neutral)?

I mean, why try to fix something (IS) which isn't broken? why try to change Being (is)? lol Since starvation and abuse is not "an abnormal state" of being then why do anything about it?

correct me if I am mistaken but, for you to do anything about it, it would be to express a polarized attitude towards it and therefore attribute a meaning (negative) to starvation or abuse? no?"

I stand equal with what is here - I am HERE - all are HERE - when standing as all as one as equal - I see it is myself that is starving, myself that is suffering -- that is unacceptable. Thus I take self responsibility for all as one as equal as myself, to make sure I am not neglecting another as myself, to make sure I am not leaving someone out of my consideration - because in that I am leaving myself out of my consideration within separation. I stand for what is best for all as one as equal as myself - that is to do unto another as you would have them do unto you. That is to give to another what you would give to yourself.

I do not accept suffering to exist - because in that I am accepting suffering to exist within and as me as all as one as equal.

"poverty and starvation just IS"

this is a JustISfication, to not have to face our responsibility for what we accept and allow to go on in our world

give up all your money and place yourself in the position of the starving - see if your words stand then

the circumstance you currently experience is a result of the same system that allows the circumstance of suffering to exist

by saying 'it just is' - is actually a statement of removing something from your consideration. You are thus submitting entirely to the current system and will never question it or take responsibility for anything and will remain only within self interest

"I mean, why try to fix something (IS) which isn't broken? why try to change Being (is)? lolSince starvation and abuse is not "an abnormal state" of being then why do anything about it? "

tell that to the face of the starving child

"it would be to express a polarized attitude towards it and therefore attribute a meaning (negative) to starvation or abuse? no?"

no - here you simply show that you have defined action within polarity only within judgments of 'positive' and 'negative' and 'neutral', and are completely directed by / controlled by polarity and do not act one and equal as yourself, here with yourself as starting point / directive principle within making an actual, real consideration about something

self forgiveness 11:41am

2010-10-05T01:04:00.003-05:00

Dictionary Words Discussion: Evaluating Definitions

2010-09-30T22:00:00.000-05:00

Price Elasticity & The Cost of Emotional Investments?

2010-09-26T22:10:00.000-05:00

Price Elasticity & The Cost of Emotional Investments?

Matti: so what is an 'elastic' - what is an 'elastic product', or whatever?
Katie: 'Price elasticity', when it's 'elastic' it's something where if the price changes, consumption changes. So if the price goes up of something, then people buy less of it. But if it's 'inelastic' then that means that it doesn't really matter what happens in the price changes, consumption will remain the same. So like for example…
Matti: so we're looking at the example of alcohol as an…
Katie: as an 'inelastic' product.
Matti: 'inelastic product', meaning - it doesn't matter how much the price goes up, the consumption Katie: will stay the same
Matti will stay the same, people - people's buying will not change.
Katie: so it's considered an 'economic necessity', because basically it's something that people require and will 'get' no matter what it costs.
Matti: Okay so we're looking at now why is it that something like alcohol - despite the price going up, your 'buying pattern' doesn't change, you still buy it. When I look at when I used to buy cigarettes it didn't matter if the price was - if it was eight dollars a pack, I didn't 'think about' how much it costs, and I didn't 'feel bad' about buying it because, once I bought it - I mean 'cause I 'needed' those cigarettes, I was addicted to them. Whereas, what's fascinating is that, I take that very same eight dollars and I go and I'm considering buying a box of cereal, and the box of cereal that's six dollars - I will be more reluctant to buy that than the box of cereal that's three dollars. I will have a conflict within myself of 'which one to buy', and I'll feel bad - I'll wanna save that money, I won't wanna spend the six dollars on the cereal, I'll rather spend three dollars on the cereal. But…
Darryl: Cause you value the tobacco more.
Matti: I value the tobacco more, because it gives me a specific experience, and the cereal doesn't give me that experience, so with the cigarettes I wouldn't blink an eye paying - just dropping - even if that's the last money I had I would just buy the cigarettes, because I'm addicted to it. So obviously it's the same with alcohol.
Then we were looking at this in relation to religion and seeing that, really religion is exactly the same. And also when you look at politics. Because it's a matter of a 'personal emotional investment' in something like - with religion it doesn't matter how…because it's 'your faith', your whole like and universe revolves around your religion so it doesn't matter how many people die, it doesn't matter how many children are abused and molested, it doesn't matter how many obvious lies and how much obvious deception is presented by the religion - your faith never worries - er, wavers, you never worry, you…
Katie: you still pay.
Matti: Your faith, your 'power of faith' does not waver, you still, you know - you keep 'buying into' the religion, and 'buying into' god, and 'buying into' the church, and 'buying into' the politician, and 'buying into' the priest - no matter what the cost, because 'you must have' that faith, you 'must have' that experience of 'everything's fine' because 'god is looking out for me', 'everything's fine' because 'president obama is looking out for the nation and solving the world's problems', whether it's a politician or a priest it's the same thing - or whether it's alcohol or cigarettes. It's like, you don't - it doesn't matter what happens, you keep buying into it because you have an emotional investment in it.
And again, obviously it's exactly the same when we look at the larger picture of how the world exists. It's like, we have such an investment in 'who we are' as our minds, as a personality, as beliefs, that we don't take the responsibility we aren't taking the responsibility to consider at a practical level, is the current way that we're living and participating here as human beings, within the economic system, within the political system, within our daily experience, actually supportive of of us and supportive of everyone. I mean, obviously the way we're living is not supportive of everyone because there's so much conflict and abuse that exists.
Katie: Well it costs the life of someone else to continue your own life.
Matti: Yes, and yet we don't, like the eight dollars - we don't question that cost because…
Katie: We need our life.
Matti: We 'need' our life - I 'need' my experience of being drunk, or having faith in god, believing everything's gonna be okay, or my experience of having my cigarette as my coping mechanism. It's like, it's the same pattern on the small scale and the large scale. So it's just really fascinating to see that in a practical..the example of, what was it? Inelastic and elastic…
Katie: Inelastic and elastic prices.
Matti: Prices, where the price of the experience we get from religion, or cigarettes or alcohol is 'inelastic' meaning, it doesn't matter what the cost is, how much shit ends up existing - our investment and involvement in 'buying into' that experience that we 'need', never wavers and we never question and look at ourselves, maybe this experience I want, is actually…not valid…
Katie: Not valuable.
Matti: And not valuable, the 'value' is made up. Because obviously if it comes at such a great cost to everyone else, and other beings, then we're compromising that which has real value which is All Life, in favor of a make believe value -- which is self interest.

YouTube - Communication , Fear and Meaning

2010-09-18T00:54:00.000-05:00

YouTube - Communication , Fear and Meaning

Working with mind constructs

2010-09-16T23:34:00.000-05:00

I've been working with familiarizing myself with the basic theory / technique / steps / components of writing out Mind Constructs within Structural Resonance Alignment Training. I had started working with mind constructs months ago but I experienced it as a huge point of resistance when it came to disciplining myself to write out mind constructs regularly and studying to become familiar with all the steps involved in writing out an effective mind construct. I ended up falling behind and have only recently gotten back to mind constructs. I have started from the beginning and this time I am at a point where I have realized the simplicity and effectiveness of actually just doing the 1+1=2 step-by-step studying and application / practice involved in learning how to do something effectively.

I realized that I had actually defined myself as being 'not sufficiently capable' of studying something that involves a lot of structured writing and guidelines -- because I had defined such things as 'academic', and I had defined myself as being 'not capable of doing academic things'. So, when I initially had started working with mind constructs I experienced a lot of anxiety and stress towards it, and kept getting to a point where I would just 'give up' and set it aside because I felt like I couldn't do it.

I've since applied self forgiveness and worked through these points of believing myself and defining myself to be 'not capable' of writing out mind constructs.

When I am working on mind constructs now, the experience that comes up usually is an experience of resistance and tiredness, and like a 'drawing a blank' kind of experience. I no longer see myself as 'not capable' of writing out the mind construct, I just keep experiencing resistance because it is not something that I am totally familiar with yet.
What I am doing is working with myself with writing and identifying information relevant to my experience / acceptances and allowances in relation to specific points and then structuring and placing this information into a mind construct format -- while at the same time I am still learning how to write out the mind construct and identify and work with the basic components of a mind construct.

Today I got frustrated working on a mind construct because I was attempting to place information into mind construct format and yet I kept drawing a blank in relation to the information I was working with. I was having difficulty identifying information to actually place in the mind construct because I did not see any pattern with regards to this specific point.

However, I kept looking at the point and eventually I identified a word that kind of 'brought everything together' and then the mind construct made sense.

It's interesting because working with mind constructs is a very deliberate act of challenging myself - challenging myself to go to the utmost specific detail within applying self honesty in investigating my experience of myself.

Changing core beliefs 3 - Response to Bashar

2010-09-10T18:55:00.002-05:00

Response to Bashar's 'Changing Core Beliefs', regarding the point of reality being seen as 'neutral props'.

The point of 'changing your experience of your circumstance / situation' through changing the meaning / belief you assign it, is used extensively within spirituality -- yet when one evaluates the larger state of this world and the physical circumstances of suffering / lack / abuse / exploitation / starvation / neglect / war / violence / enslavement that people are born into / forced into --- one can easily see that this point of 'reality as neutral props' instantly is recognizable as a point of self delusion and self interest that only 'makes sense' within the logic of the mind of the consumer with money as the elite of the world - where the consumer exists in a bubble created with money, able to avoid facing the horrific circumstances experienced by those without money.

Why does Darryl Anka not test the message he delivers?
Who is willing to give up all money and test the message of Bashar to see if it is valid for all?

We have the responsibility when presenting a message to the world, to first test it using principle that will allow one to measure whether the message stands to be applicable by all as an actual solution that equates what is best for all here within the context of this current world / system.

'Changing core beliefs' encourages negligent behavior - encourages the division of man through ones 'own' personal mental reality that one designs in self interest - not considering all life equally as self.

I am One Vote for World Equality with Equal Money for All
Self Honesty, Self Forgiveness, Self Perfection
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The Power of Namaste: Spirituality for Dummies

2010-09-04T22:18:00.000-05:00

Self forgiveness on fear of silence

2010-09-04T17:19:00.000-05:00

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear absolutely silent within myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I am absolutely silent within myself, that I will lose myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing myself

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see and realize that absolute silence is what is here when I am not thinking, thus it's always been here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define 'who I am' to be thoughts running quietly in my mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not knowing what to say

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust knowledge and thoughts of something to say, instead of trusting me to simply speak as myself without 'knowing' and 'laying out' prior, the words I am going to use

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'fear losing all my knowledge' - within believing that if I were to 'lose all my knowledge', I would 'lose myself'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must still think, in order to 'remind myself' of what I know

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to depend on having thoughts in my head as reminders of what is required to be done during the day.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see and realize that I can see what is required to be done during the day, and I am aware of what is required to be done during the day -- and that within this, I do not actually need to 'remember' what is required to be done.
Me needing to 'remember' what is required to be done, actually implies that I, here as myself do not see what is required to be done, implies that I am in a state of 'forgetfulness' and thus am required to be 'reminded' by a memory, of what is required to be done.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to depend on memories to direct my day for me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to depend on prioritizing my day according to the experience that comes up within me when I look at a memory of a specific task or thing that is required to be done during my day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define being absolutely silent within myself as 'not being able to do anything'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my day as me 'doing things' in response to / as directed by thoughts and memories -- instead of walking my day as me, where my day is me participating, here, as me, with me, for me, here in the physical, actually physically moving myself -- not being directed by an experience of thought, memory or energy -- where my action is equal to me, and I am equal to my action - where my action is me - an act of and as me - an expression of and as me

Beliefs about 'karma' or 'god's plan', or 'the soul's journey'

2010-09-03T20:11:00.000-05:00

Using beliefs about 'karma' or 'god's plan', or 'the soul's journey' to justify starvation, poverty and the other abuse of capitalism is like watching your neighbor beat your dog in the back yard and just standing there saying it's the dog's 'karma'

Acting as the moment & Self Forgiveness on sleep

2010-08-31T03:35:00.000-05:00

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into and participate in being dejected and despondent when I wake up in the morning within an experience of energy associated with a dream I've been having

I forgive myself that I have not simply allowed myself to breathe and not judge anything that I am experiencing when I wake up in the morning

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to sleep
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make sleep into something more than it actually, practically is -- by accepting and allowing myself to participate in beliefs / ideas / thoughts / memories of sleep, instead of realizing that sleep is simple -- there is simply the consideration of: does my body require rest - and if so, then I rest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in emotions, feelings, desires, judgments, thoughts, memories related to 'sleep' and 'sleeping' and 'waking up'

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to accept and embrace the simplistic nature of sleep -- body is tired = rest / sleep. when body is rested = stop resting / stop sleeping. Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to accept and embrace the simplistic nature of 'waking up' - wherein I see that 'waking up' is simply me opening my eyes, breathing and physically getting out of bed. I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that any reluctance / resistance to 'getting up out of bed and starting the day' that I experience, is indicating a reluctance / resistance to living fully as life, here as the moment.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the only reason I ever experience reluctance / resistance to getting up out of bed and starting the day, is because I have not let go of all memories / knowledge of the past day -- I have not allowed myself to wake up new, in a new life, a new moment - where I do not dread the day, I do not regret the previous day - I do not have any judgments about the day -- because I am simply here and I breathe, get up and walk as new in innocence, within self trust - me trusting me that I will live / participate fully as life within whatever is to be encountered within my day. Because all I actually have is myself, here in breath as the moment. Here is where I live - here is where I actualize the day as my actual participation. And the actuality of the nature of my day will be accordant with the actuality of my participation moment to moment. Therefore all thoughts / projections / imagination / pictures / memories / apprehension / anxiety / fears / desire is irrelevant to my day. When / if such experiences arise within me within a moment, I simply assist and support myself by looking at what the experience is indicating that I am accepting and allowing within me, and I direct it according to what best supports me in self honesty to live fully as life within what is best for all as one as equal Here in every moment. Because All as One as Equal is Here in every moment. I as All as One as Equal am Here in every moment.
Therefore the mind is really irrelevant - because the mind cannot live fully as all as one as equal Here in every moment -- the mind can only exist within self preservation - because the experiences of mind that arise within me, always have a beginning and an end and always require my attention and participation to keep existing - whereas, what is Here is Here - I do not need to maintain it / generate it through thinking. Therefore, what is Here is what is relevant - and common sense is to act in a way that support the outcome of an existence where what is Here as the moment is the best possible Here for all that is Here.
Thoughts do not have the ability to act. Thoughts do not have choice. A thought is a self contained, limited thing that has no ability for expression or life - it is simply nothing. Therefore it is ludicrous to participate in thinking.

Action is the Actuality of my participation physically, Here as the moment. Therefore, as breath I simply stand Here - Equal as the Moment - where the moment is Me - I am the moment. And in every moment, All is Here. Therefore in every moment I am able to act within what is best for All.

YouTube - Creating One Person

2010-08-27T22:02:00.000-05:00

Creating One Person
- Life is 1 - Love is Equality for ALL
-9 August 2010-
by Bernard Poolman for universal equality and the end of all abuse
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Self Forgiveness on Self Delusion and Make-Believe

2010-08-24T23:51:00.000-05:00

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an idea of and about myself as being 'a perfect being' as defined as a being that is 'flawless' amidst many that are 'flawed' and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as 'flawless' as defined as 'a being that does not make mistakes' -- I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as 'someone who does not make mistakes'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an idea about others around me that they are 'less' than me through have accepted and allowed myself to define others around me as 'flawed' as 'people who make mistakes' --- within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as 'more than' and have an idea about / of myself as 'more than' than other around me within believing that no matter what I do, I do not actually make mistakes because 'I am flawless', 'I am perfect', while the 'others' around me are 'flawed' and 'make mistakes' and because of this are 'less' than me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow a make-believe version of myself to exist in my mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow a make-believe version of others to exist in my mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within division and separation of all as one as equal through accepting and allowing myself to have and participate within a make-believe version of myself, others and reality within my mind that I have believed to be 'who myself, others and my reality really are', instead of seeing and realizing the obviousness of the fact that such make believe versions of myself, others and my reality are made-up and do not actually represent any form of awareness of myself, others or my reality, as all such make-believe versions exist as interpretations formed through observation through my mind, and are not actual, direct seeing as awareness of and as what is here, Equal and One as Me

2010-08-24T01:06:00.000-05:00

The current system is one of ill will where billions are denied a dignified life and left to starve to death if they have no money.
Support an Equal Money system that ensures All Will be fed and All Will live a Life of Dignity.
I am One Vote for World Equality with Equal Money for All because I Will not Accept or Allow a world where anyone is abused.

Human Behavior is Not a Mystery

2010-08-22T15:20:00.000-05:00

Human behavior is not a mystery - it is determined by the words and the specific accepted definitions of those words, that constitute our beliefs, ideas, opinions, values and self definitions which we are currently Living as 'Who I am' as a walking book

Self Honesty within Self Investigative Writing is an extremely effective way of identifying the specific definitions we have accepted and when and where we learned those definitions.

And the Desteni material, when thoroughly and properly studied, gives clarity with regards to establishing a clear and wide context in which to look at oneself and evaluate the larger consequences and implications of the definitions / words we are accepting and allowing ourselves to live and define ourselves / others / our world by.

Desteni shares practical tools of 'Self-Reading' so to speak - which are able to be applied by anyone, within taking Self Responsibility for understanding and purifying our starting point of the 'book of ourselves' -- where through guiding ourselves by the Principle of Equality and Oneness wherein we consider what is Best for All Life in the context of this world, this reality that we are all participating in as 'walking books' -- we can ensure that the words and definitions we are Living as Ourselves as a 'Walking Book' do not support or give permission for the abuse of life.

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My experience toward 'careers'

2010-08-22T14:39:00.000-05:00

As I have been working more with vocabulary and reading as part of the software business I am involved with, I have been seeing how all past and previous conceptions about 'careers' and 'professionals' that I have had, have been inaccurate.

Primarily the way I have experienced myself in the past toward education, careers, and 'educated professionals', has been that of inferiority. Where I saw and experienced myself as 'less than' and 'less capable' than 'educated professionals' whom I experienced as 'authoritative' and 'superior in capability' to me.

The primary reason I have had this inferiority is because as I progressed through middle school and high school, I gradually began to enjoy school less and less, and began to apply myself within school less and less.
I defined myself as a 'creative' person as 'someone who is not academic' --- and I defined everything 'school related' as 'academic' and therefore 'not who I am'.
I did not like studying things or reading about anything that I saw as 'academic' -- I was rather much more concerned with entertaining myself and 'being creative'. My reluctance to apply myself within studying or developing the more 'normal' careers skills, was because I have always been 'naturally' adept at the more 'instant gratification' things like drawing and playing instruments.
From a very young age I was encouraged in my creativity by my parents, my dad being an artist himself, and never had the influence of someone more 'academic' around me.
Thus, all my interests and preferences developed in alignment with the definition of myself as being 'a creative person' and not an 'academic person'.
I thus experienced dislike, boredom, frustration, impatience with most subjects that are considered 'academic' -- primarily math, science, most history and social studies, and anything that involved disciplined application of 'proper form'.

My dislike of doing things in a disciplined way according to the prescribed 'proper form' eventually resulted in me dropping out of high school in my senior year, because I simply experienced it as 'what's the point', and severely disliked being in school.

I later got my GED and took the SAT in order to apply to art school -- which I dropped out of after the first or second quarter after discovering that art school was not just about making art, but was about following the 'proper form' in order to get a degree to then get a job and make money.

Back then, from my perspective that was 'bullshit' and I wanted to live my life in a way that was 'more free'.

I then basically hung around in my home town for a few years, not doing anything too specific, working an easy job and eventually spending more time developing art. I began to develop art more, due in large part to financial motivation.

However, there came the point when I encountered desteni and began studying the material extensively.
I joined the forum in 2008 and have been applying myself with disciplined writing, self honesty and self forgiveness for almost 3 years.

I am now currently living with 2 other desteni participants, Katie and Cameron, and we are working together getting a business going and getting ourselves effective at being able to sell a product.
Alongside this I also plan to enroll in college and commence studying.

I am doing this because within my time applying myself with self honesty and self forgiveness, I have come to see that my capabilities far exceed what I had believed of myself in the past.
My past perceptions of myself as being 'less capable' of for instance studying or learning how to do business, were entirely based on my 'negative emotional experiences' towards studying and 'academics' which I had developed over the years through having defined myself more and more within an idea of 'creativity' rather than 'academics' and studying, and wherein my decisions about what to do with my life were previously directed by my accepted limitations and self definitions, and beliefs and ideas about myself.

Now, things are quite different.
Because what I have discovered is that 'who I was' as the person I experienced myself as within my school years and the time after I dropped out of high school -- was never really who I am. That was merely me as defined by the extensive ideas I had about myself as a result of my specific upbringing and the specific encouragement I had received from my parents, which conflicted with the structure of the school system.
My accepted limitations with regards to studying, getting an education and becoming effective 'in the system' have simply been the result of me allowing myself to be subject to reactions / emotions / resistances that come up when faced with studying, which have been based in my definitions and ideas and beliefs about myself that I am 'not academic', and that I am 'not capable' of studying, and that I am 'less than' those in this world who have gotten a higher education and have become 'professionals'.

What I now see is the simplicity of how the human being actually learns.

With my application of self honesty and self forgiveness and breathing in every moment, I have been able to remove enough of the layers of self definitions, self ideas, self beliefs and emotional experiences to be able to see how simple the process of learning actually is.

Just as my 'mental experience' of myself as thoughts, feelings, emotions, reactions, ideas, beliefs, opinions, desires, fears, etc actually just consists of information as words with definitions, structured according to my acceptances and allowances as the words I am 'Living as myself', this entire world system as all the 'careers' and 'professions' and 'tasks' and 'functions' carried out by human beings, simply consists of information - words.

What I believe I 'can do' or 'not do' according to some idea I have about myself, is completely irrelevant to what I am able to in fact 'do' and 'not do'.

What does it take to become a 'professional'?

For every career there is a college curriculum. This curriculum consists primarily of books. These books contain knowledge / information of how things work, and how to do something.
This knowledge and information consists of certain key concepts and ideas and understandings that are required to be transferred to the student, so that the student then knows how to do something.

These key concepts and ideas, are communicated on the pages of books -- and a page in a books consists of many individual words placed together specifically to convey a concept / idea / instruction, etc.

Each individual word has a specific definition.

Obviously if one does not have the vocabulary - meaning, if one has not actually learned all those individual words and their definitions -- one will not be able to read that page of that book, and will not be able to learn those concepts and ideas and instructions being conveyed on the page.

A successful professional is simply someone who has been able to learn all the vocabulary words specific to a particular profession, and has effectively read and understood all the information / instruction conveyed within the curriculum, and is now putting that information into application as a 'career'.

When we hear or see 'professionals' speaking 'professionally' about their field - whether it be medicine, law, politics, science, engineering --- we tend to see them / perceive them as being 'smart' - and being 'more smart than me' because they are speaking fluently about something that 'I don't understand'.

But their ability to speak about their specific field, is not a result of them being 'superior' or 'smart' as apparently some magic ability. No.

They simply 'know their stuff' -- they know the material they are speaking about. They have all the vocabulary words with definitions and they have, through reading, achieved successful transfer of information from books into their mind, and are now able to speak about their field.

See, it is not magic.

What I have noticed also with regards to speaking about a specific topic to other people in the area of business I am currently involved in -- is that all anxiety, fear, apprehension, nervousness that I have experienced towards being in a situation where I must convey something effectively to someone -- has been a result of me simply not having clearly understood and integrated the words / definitions / information with regards to a specific point.
What I thus do, is I look at the points where anxiety / uncertainty / apprehension comes up, and I identify what do I not actually clearly understand with regards to what I am speaking about - and then I go and investigate those points in writing, and clarify for myself what that point means, how it works, what is the nature of its relationship to the other points it is relevant to -- and when I am clear that I now understand that point, I then clarify that any anxiety or fear that comes up again with regards to speaking about that point, is not real and that I am simply making the point into something it is not, through thinking about it.

Studying a specific field is not in itself a complicated 'thing' -- because each career field is simply a body of information -- and each career field is in relationship to other career fields as other bodies of information, which all together collectively form the 'system' -- it is all simply information - and all that information is simply words.

Thus, going back to the point I was initially speaking about which was how I had placed myself as 'less than' and 'inferior' to 'professionals' -- I have seen that such a placement of myself through my mind is completely ridiculous, and is based on the idea that people who are 'professionals' are 'more than me' - when in fact all they are is simply someone who has a specifically developed vocabulary and has had a specific college curriculum transferred to them through reading books.

Stay tuned as I will be writing more on the point of education and careers.

YouTube - Souls Ignored by God - As Above so Below

2010-08-21T18:32:00.000-05:00

Souls Ignored by God - As Above so Below
-20 July 2010-
by Bernard Poolman
for universal equality and the end of all abuse
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soul god sold 'as above so below' world-system money-system feed system robot disregarded disenfranchised money uplift profit greed death profitable soul-system loyal white-light protection demon-dimension possessed mind possession poor poverty demons demonic abandoned children fallen angels 'god's will' heaven earth oneness equality desteni

YouTube - Mob attacks School Pupils - Holocaust of Money

2010-08-20T16:02:00.000-05:00

YouTube - Mob attacks School Pupils - Holocaust of Money
Signs of the Times News:
Mob attacks School Pupils - Holocaust of Money
-20 August 2010-
Stop the Crimes against Life!
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Labor as constructive participation in an Equal Money system

2010-08-08T14:35:00.000-05:00

"Also I must inquire, would an equal money society allow a free market similar to what we have in north america today? And would all labor pay the same regardless of training or physical demand?"
-CountHektor

Common sense is that labor should be a point of constructive participation in ones world in taking on an actual real purpose for oneself - not to earn 'profit' to try and achieve 'more security' and be 'more well off financially' - that merely indicates the extent to which people are not currently able to live for the sake of the betterment of actual life, but 'must labor' only to 'stay secure' through making money for survival.

An equal money system will change this, and allow us to learn, labor and participate in our world free from the anxiety and urgency of 'needing to make money'.
-Matti Freeman

One Vote For World Equality - facebook post and comments

2010-08-05T23:15:00.000-05:00

Peter Hutton Hi Andrea, thanks for the video, but the problem in the world isn't money and how it is distributed, that's a biproduct of an underlying foundation and premise most humans share. The way out is consciousness, awareness, and realizing everyo...ne is creating their own reality. The guy talking seems very passionate and I don't doubt his good intentions, but he is misguided all the same, and what I picked up on was a sense of powerlessness, his own and his projection onto others of their powerlessness. Are people powerless to change their lives? Possibly. But equally possible is they do have the power to change their life, they just don't know it or don't want to know it. I care about the poor. But I'd rather show them how to fish then give them fish if you know what i mean.

Maya Harel Peter, The solution that you suggested isn't standing through the test of time. Everyone is responsible for our reality Equally as one and this is why this physical reality exists as it does today where half of this world live in less the 2...$ a day, where children starve to death every few minutes and a women get raped every 3 second. We are responsible for it as well as all as equal.

What exists is the Law of Balance which means that when you create the good in your world, the bad must get balance somewhere! and it does. just open your eyes

Equal Money System is a temporary solution to the main goal - all Equal and One as Self realization, Here in this physical Reality.
To do that, All people must have the basic right as life - Food, Shelter, Education.
When those will be establish - people would have 'Time' to focus on them self, and realize themselves with Self Forgiveness, Self Honesty, Self corrective application and common sense.

The current problem in this world is Money - no matter how you'll look at it.Money became our 'God'. Equal money system will change the value of Money to Value of LIFE.

Now, i suggest you to hear unconditionally other people instead of project onto them your own interpretation of your Mind.
Turn it back to self and check for yourself who is really "powerless"

Half of this world don't have the power to change their life. they need money to do that - the need food to support their physical body. it's not that they don't know how - they just can't.

Now, when saying you care for the poor - OMG. are you really caring for the poor? becuase within your words, it doesn't seem that way - all you care about is YOU, from the starting point of self interest, not considering all as one as equal. not living as the principle of equality but as personality.

We are all living in this ONE physical reality, and we are all Responsibile for everything that exists.
Stop blinding your eyes and realize that as long as people are suffering, we all as one are suffering.
Until we stop.

So unless you have any other practical solution that will be effectively changing this world, i suggest to learn more about Equal money system, and check out Desteni Massage where you'll see for yourself the extant of what does it means Equal responsibility.

Matti Freeman yea, I know what you mean - you'd rather bring a child into a world where they have to earn the ability to even sustain themselves at a basic level through spending years proving to the system that they are valuable enough to the system to ...not be spit out

in an equal money system - what is proposed is a common sense system of support for life where from birth - you have value and never lose that value and thus are never SPIT OUT by the system because you are life and you have value.

Where you are given the tools to develop into a functionally effective participant on earth who can focus on developing and flourishing in expression and practical living to support your fellow man and to do your part to support the equality system that supports you so you can live the rest of your life in exploration and enjoyment of who you are as life instead of being trapped in a lifelong work schedule merely staying occupied with mental fantasy lands in lifestyles that are bought within consumerism and based on self definitions you have developed through being taught how to exist as a consumer from birth by parents / teachers / media / religion as in the current system -- where you then use sentiment and feelings to justify allowing starvation and poverty, deluded into believing that millions of starving people with no money and no access to any support structure simply has the magical ability to effectively support themselves -- so that you can feel okay going about your life of self interest until death

you've been misguided by the pictures / sentiments / feelings of religion and spirituality to support consumerism, separation and inequality through occupying yourself in your mind as an alternate self-interested 'reality' shaped by beliefs and opinions, where you value your mental / feeling / emotional sentiment and philosophy rather than actually valuing all life as principle and supporting that value to be honored in all ways at all levels as actual care

I suggest, do extensive research on all videos / articles produced thus far on the Equal Money system and consider that the support of life will not happen if the system does not function according to principle - principle that always equate what is best for all and never gives priority to opinion / belief / sentiment as in the current system

equal money will bring social change

2010-07-26T17:06:00.000-05:00

Before survival becomes part of the equation, children get along and there is equality.

when children reach the age where they must start to learn to 'survive' socially and social anxieties / fears develop - gangs as 'social groups' start to form and continues for the rest of their lives in the money system. The current money system consists of social classes and competition in the work place with the goal of making more money to achieve a higher social class.

Thus in the current system, sociology is not about human beings expressing themselves with each other in equality as with very young children --- it is about competition and division within social classes which are determined by how much money you have.

an equal money system that removes the class system and competition for survival, essentially equalizes the social playing field from the perspective of restoring the opportunity for self expression that was present when we were very young.

in an equal money system -- there is no longer any purpose for the 'personalities' that have developed as part of the class / social system based on how much money you have.

The removal of such a 'class / social' structure based on how much money one has, will result in a change in the way we as human beings socialize and express ourselves.

Equality always stops polarity

2010-07-17T08:09:00.000-05:00

Equality always stops polarity - and when you stop the polarity you stop the need to find 'balance' because you restore Equal-Librium. Hence, the Equal-Life foundation.

The Equal Life Foundation presents An Equality System with Equal Money for All which will stop rich and poor and also the 'middle' class and will overrule spirituality's ideas about 'balance' which have been used to perpetuate polarity where some have a poor balance-sheet and others have a rich balance-sheet and some have a moderate balance-sheet -- where everyone is 'holding their balance' and trying to attain an even 'better balance'

With Equality, the system will never be 'imbalanced', and the purpose of our lives will no longer have to be about struggling to attain a position of monetary security where we can then say 'I'm balanced now because I have enough money in my balance' -- because support will be equal from birth to death

Poverty and Equal Money

2010-07-08T10:21:00.000-05:00

Poverty is the Physical Reality of what is created by the current system - it is not actually 'negative' - 'negative' is a judgment.

Poverty is simply the physical fact of what happens when you don't have money within the system we are all agreeing upon and accepting.

In judging and defining poverty as 'the negative', and as 'bad', we then desire to attain the opposite as 'wealth', 'safety', 'security' and 'happiness' through getting MONEY which we have defined as 'the positive', in FEAR of poverty as 'the negative'.

The existence of poverty and starvation and lack actually supports the existence and success of corporations within consumerism, because corporations capitalize on our fear of poverty and lack, by presenting us with lots of stuff to BUY so we feel 'happy' and 'safe' within a bubble purchased with money.

so the whole time we are 'focusing on the positive' - which is all the nice stuff we want to have and experience through attaining money, we are actually supporting the existence of poverty as 'the negative'. This is because we have agreed to value money itself, as a tool with which to attain a nice life for ourselves, so that we don't have to experience poverty and starvation. And the current money system reflects this accepted value -- it does not function to support all Life within actually valuing all Life -- it functions to support our self interest, which is what we have agreed to be 'the way things are'.

If everyone had Equal Money where the value of money is equal to Life --- poverty would end, starvation would end -- but so would our current lifestyle based in consumerism where we are desiring and wanting all the 'positive' because we fear all the 'negative'

an Equal Money system removes the polarity of what we have defined to be 'positive' and 'negative'
as 'rich and poor'

Equal Money removes both the 'desire to survive' and the 'fear of not surviving' by giving everyone Equal survival

thus, Equal Money allows all the actual opportunity to LIVE, instead of just getting money to survive and experience the 'positive'

To not support Equal Money, simply reveals that you do not want to give everyone equal survival and life -- and that you value your money, instead of valuing life.

Personal Interests and Consumerism

2010-07-08T09:48:00.000-05:00

our 'personal interests as our 'lifestyle', each have a relevant industry within the system, which impulses our desires with symbols / pictures / words / sounds in television, movies, music, religion, magazines - providing us with a wide variety of 'choices' of ways to gratify our desires as 'personal interests' - which is consumerism

living only for our 'personal interests' as 'our lifestyle' supports abuse - because the industries exploit and abuse humans, nature and animals to produce the things we then buy to gratify our 'personal interests' -- with many industries competing to make the most profit off our desires - capitalizing on our 'personal interests' for a 'lifestyle'

many people say they support 'change' -- but react to and attack any proposed change that would threaten or change their current 'lifestyle' which is bought through consumerism

when 'who you are' is a personality defined by a lifestyle that must be maintained through continually participating in consumerism - which is self interest -- then EQUALITY is a threat to YOU as your personality and YOU as your lifestyle - and thus, you react and defend the current system which is you defending your personality

in an Equal Money System - the system will no longer exploit humans, animals, or nature to maintain industries which exist solely as consumerism to gratify people's desires to exist in their own personal bubble as a 'lifestyle' they they believe they 'chose'

See - you don't actually choose your lifestyle.
The way you participate in consumerism - the lifestyle you end up in, is based on your initial upbringing, education, and environmental influences which shaped the patterns of behavior / beliefs / self definitions / opinions that you then live out as your 'personality' which determines the nature and appearance of the lifestyle you assemble using money which you earned through finding a job that best suits your personality, level of education and behavioral patterns.

Self Forgiveness - thoughts in relation to making music

2010-07-04T17:47:00.000-05:00

Some thoughts and experiences I have been facing in relation to making music, that I used smoking to suppress and not deal with

'I must 'be the best' and 'achieve perfection'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I must be the best

I forgive myself that I have a accepted and allowed myself to think that I must 'achieve perfection'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must make 'perfect music'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define making music according to an idea of 'perfection'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define making music as a process within which I must 'achieve' something

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must be the best

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must make the best music

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want my music to be the best

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire an experience of having achieved perfection in relation to making music

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect myself to have an experience of being the best when I make a song, and within this

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when I make music but do not have an experience of 'being the best', then judge myself as failing myself and become discouraged with myself. And I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my experience of discouragement, to believe that it is actually indicating and telling me that I have failed myself, instead of realizing and seeing that I create the entire emotional experience through my own accepted ideas and definition and beliefs of and about myself in relation to music.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within and as an idea of perfection, and to within this, expect myself to live up to
and meet my idea of perfection

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an idea of perfection

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thoughts and ideas that arise in my mind of me being the 'best' - where I will then judge what I am doing, judge the music I am making through the eyes of these thoughts and ideas, instead of expressing myself here in the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when I was young - when my parents would tell me I am good, and that I am talented, and that I am gifted, judge myself to be more than the rest, and create a standard within myself that I must be the best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define perfection as 'being better than the rest'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want, need, and desire for my music to be 'better than the rest.'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want, need, and desire for myself to be 'better than the rest.'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as 'gifted'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word 'gifted' as - being bestowed with more value than another, as being better than another, as being more than another

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have been bestowed with more value than another being

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am more than another being - within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my music needs to be more than, and better than the music of others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when I was young - allow myself to believe that what and who and how my parents tell me I am - is in fact what I am, who I am, and how I am - instead of realizing that these are only definitions of myself that I accept and then experience myself as and participate in my world as - and that these definitions are not who I really am, how I really am, what I really am.

If I can't make it perfect, what's the use?
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thinking that if I can't make something 'perfect' then 'what's the use'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create this thought through having accepted and allowed myself to have ideas and definitions of myself being required to achieve perfection, according to a projected idea of perfection I have accepted and allowed myself to have and participate in

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into self defeat when I've experienced that I did not live up to my standard of perfection

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use smoking as an energetic veil to hide within when I would experience the thought of 'what's the use' - instead of from the very beginning when I first had the thought, stand here in and as breath as me - and assist and support myself within self honesty to investigate the thought and stop it with self forgiveness and self corrective application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought of 'what's the use'? as a statement of futility towards something.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is 'futile' to make music if I cannot experience myself as 'having achieved perfection' each time I make music. lol.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when I am making music, expect myself to have a feeling of being satisfied that what I am making is 'perfect'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the experience of futility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my existence is futile - instead of realizing this is merely a deliberate statement of not allowing myself to live as Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not allow myself to live as Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use smoking as a veil to hide from my experience of futility and 'what's the use'

I must have total freedom at all times to do whatever I want in relation to making music
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an idea of 'total freedom' defined by having whatever I need available at my fingertips at all times

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define making music as something I am only able to do if my idea of 'total freedom' is being met by my environment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I 'can't make music' unless I have 'total freedom' as defined by my environment providing me with everything that I could possibly need

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have and participate in the thought of 'I must have total freedom at all times to do whatever I want' or else I am not able to make music, and it is not worth making music

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my idea of 'total freedom' as a standard that must be met by my environment for me to then be able to make music

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make 'making music' into a 'big deal' for myself

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to simply work fully with is in my hands that is available, and to take the practical steps to making money to then be able to afford other things

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the money system for my experience of limitation and frustration within making music - instead of realizing and acknowledging that I have not in fact been allowing myself to live fully within what is here available - thus seeing that the money system is not to 'blame' and cannot be 'blamed' for my experience - because I am the one that created my idea of freedom that I then placed as the standard which I want and expect my environment as the world to provide for me - instead of realizing the simple facts of how the system exists, and realizing that the system cannot be blamed, and it is not practical to 'expect something' from the system, and thus, to support myself would be to live fully within what I have available, and take the necessary steps required to make money and buy the things that I I require in order to place my expression more effectively

I could do better, I could make better music'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have and participate in the thought of 'I could do better'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have and participate in the thought of 'I could make better music'

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize how unnecessary it is to have thoughts about what I am doing -- because I see that I can always see directly what I am doing, what requires attention, what could be done more effectively, etc -- because I am participating physically. Thus having thoughts about what I am doing physically is stupid and useless. Especially when I allow my thoughts to ratify my actual physical action and expression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the music I make as 'not good enough', and then become discouraged and 'feel bad' about myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself in my thoughts

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my expression as being 'not good enough' - instead of realizing that expression is not about 'good and bad' - it is about me - it is me expressing - simple. And I am here in a reality, in which I use certain objects and tools to facilitate the placement of my expression in this reality. Thought is not necessary within this - my thoughts are not Here as this physical reality that I am working with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see others as inferior musicians

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the superior musician I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define music within and as the polarity of 'superior and inferior' - and to within this, want and desire to be the superior musician

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see and realize that the degree of effectiveness and specificity of music people make has nothing to do with the person being 'superior' or 'inferior' -- because the expression that is placed merely reflects who the person is and how they have physically directed themselves within making the music - thus the polarity judgment is irrelevant - the comparison is irrelevant - because self expression is about Self, Me, Here - Who I Am.

July 3 2010 - Self Forgiveness on not being more organized

2010-07-02T21:16:00.000-05:00

what things do I see others being / applying that I compare myself to and judge myself for not doing?

being organized and orderly -- I judge myself for not being as orderly and organized as I see I could be to make certain parts of my life easier to handle and keep track of

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself in moments when I
see I could be doing something in a more organized way, but I'm not

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself in moments when I see I am taking a shortcut in something and not being as organized as I could be, and in that making it more difficult to keep track of something / handle something

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be jealous of others who I see as being 'more organized than me' - instead of assisting and supporting myself by directing myself to organize my world more effectively in areas where I see and experience that I am not being effective in organization

Self Forgiveness - remorse and dread

2010-06-29T22:25:00.000-05:00

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in remorse
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be experience / accept myself as remorseful towards the world
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and experience myself as remorseful towards myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and experience myself as remorseful towards myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and experience and accept myself as regretful towards the world
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and experience and accept myself as regretful towards myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret not being willing to assist and support myself within taking self responsibility
to write about my experience of myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into remorse instead of standing and assisting and supporting myself with self forgiveness
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to forgive myself unconditionally
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret not allowing myself to forgive myself unconditionally
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about applying self forgiveness, instead of actually assisting and supporting
myself as Life as who I really am Here, within actually forgiving myself unconditionally, immediately
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hesitate in applying self forgiveness, and within my hesitation, go into my mind and
think about self forgiveness, and think about my experience - instead of breathing, and immediately assisting and supporting myself with and as self forgiveness
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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not able to stop experiencing myself as and existing as emotions, thoughts and feelings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear emotional experiences
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give power to emotions
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value in emotions
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that emotions are 'who I really am' - instead of realizing that who I really am
is constant, stable, eternal - Here - and that emotions are merely an energetic experience that functions and exists as a system - as a systematic experience with a beginning and end --- emotions are not who I really am - it is not me actually experiencing a real experience of myself - it is a system - it is energy - I am not energy - energy is not 'who I really am' -- who I really am is here as breath - who I really am is silence - who I really am is - nothingness - who I really am is stillness - no movement of emotion, feeling, thought, reaction, energy

Who I really am is silence, stillness, stability, constancy, consistency - as breath, here in every moment.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the lie that I must be, become, experience and accept myself as the mind consciousness system as emotions, thoughts, feelings, reactions as energy

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Dread

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and experience myself as dread
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dread my emotions
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dread the patterns as energy that I experience
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the emotions, feelings, thoughts, reactions as energy that arises within me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if and when an emotion as energy comes up within me - that means I must accept myself as that emotion, and that I am defined by and as that emotion - that the emotion is 'who I really am' - instead of realizing and seeing that the emotion is an energetic experience created through programming as information that I have accepted as 'who I am' and 'how I am'

Till Here No Further.

I do not accept or allow myself to define myself as emotions, feelings, thoughts, reactions, energy.

I am not energy.
I am not emotions.
I am not feelings.
I am not reactions.
I am not thoughts.

I am nothingness - I am silence - I am stillness - I am darkness - I am a breath.

Jun. 28 - Self Forgiveness on missing an appointment

2010-06-28T10:23:00.000-05:00

This is with regards to a follow up appointment that I had made with someone.

I discussed with andrea that we will meet again in 2 weeks from that day - a tuesday. I wrote the appointment down in my appointment book. When I left the building, I felt relieved - I was glad I had 'extra time'. Somehow I placed the date of the appointment in my mind as being in July instead of June.
I do not remember this moment.
As the days passed from that day, I did my thing each day and in my mind my next appointment with andrea was 'in July'. This was accompanied by an experience that 'I am safe as long as it is still June', I don't have to worry about the appointment until July.
Then yesterday, June 27, I checked my appointment book and saw that I had actually written down our next appointment as being on June 22 - which means I missed the actual appointment.
When I saw this I reacted with anxiety, dread, fear, regret, disappointment, shame. I immediately saw that I had been trusting what I saw in my mind this whole time, I had trusted my placement of the appointment as being in July -- even though this was not written down anywhere and was simply me believing that the next appointment is in July.

So, what did I do? After my appointment with andrea, I didn't want to 'worry' or 'concern' myself with our next appointment because in my mind I now had 'all this time' until our next appointment. In my mind I placed our next appointment as being in July - and thus I didn't have to concern myself with the appointment as long as it was still June.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility for keeping track of my appointment, to my mind, because in my mind I was able to make the appointment seem like it was further away - and within this I was able to feel more relaxed and as long as I held that point in my mind I did not have to keep track of it in actuality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect taking responsibility for my appointment, because I didn't feel like giving it attention, because I didn't want to feel stressed out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the appointment itself was the cause of my stress - instead of realizing that the cause of my stress is me - and that I have defined the appointment as 'stressful' -- why? Because I have defined 'making appointments' as something 'business' related, and 'who I am' is not good at 'business' related things. I have defined myself and placed myself as 'less than' business related things.
I have defined and placed myself as 'inferior' to business related things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as 'not good at business related things'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place myself and define myself as 'inferior' to business related things.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define business related things as 'stressful'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that whenever I get involved with something 'business' related - that I will experience stress, and that I should experience stress.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a 'creative' person - as defined by someone who is not good at 'business' things, but is rather good at 'art things'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define creativity as 'making art'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define 'creativity' as meaning 'not good at doing non-art things'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define business related activities / things as 'hard'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word 'hard' as meaning 'something that causes and creates stress in me.'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'not want to do or be involved in business related activities and things' -- within having defined myself as being a 'creative' person as define by someone who only does 'art things' and does not do 'business related things'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an idea about myself that I am 'not good at' business related activities and things.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the word business.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being and becoming involved in business related activities and things.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking to people in a 'business related' situation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place the expectation on myself that in 'business related' situations, I will be
and experience myself as 'stressed'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my mind to escape the business related situation I found myself in - because I did not want to face and confront and take responsibility for the situation because I was stressed.

So I used my mind as a way to escape from the stress I experienced, and the way I escaped from the stress, was to in my mind believe that I had 'more time' in which to not have to deal with / participate in the business related situation. the more time I have, the less stressed I am. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define participating in / being involved in business related situations and activities is 'stressful' - instead of realizing that it is not the situation itself that is stressful, nor is the the thing that situation is related to - I myself am the cause and creator of my stress through ideas, definitions, beliefs, judgments, opinions.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the opinion that business and business related situations and activities are 'stressful'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide from my experience of myself by using my mind to escape into an alternate, projected reality that is the reality I would 'prefer' to experience. I used my mind to place myself into a time frame that made me feel less stressed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my mind to escape from my experience of stress in relation to my appointment, by creating an alternate time frame in my mind in which I have 'more time' before my appointment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in what I see and experience through and within my mind as thoughts and projected situations, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust my mind, through having accepted and allowed myself to believe in my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that thoughts and projections in my mind are actually in fact indicating and representing a real situation and that thus my thoughts and projections in my mind can be trusted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want, need and desire a way to cope with my experience of myself. And within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in using my mind as a way to cope with my experience of myself, by creating thoughts, projections, fantasies, pictures that reflect / are based in what I would prefer to experience, and how I would prefer my situation to exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust my mind instead of trusting me here in and as breath.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take responsibility for what I am responsible for.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use thoughts and projections and fantasies to feel okay about my situation, instead of
facing any experience of myself as being 'not okay', and taking self responsibility for my experience by identifying how I have created my experience, and
applying self forgiveness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to 'coping' with my experience, within allowing myself to believe that any 'quick fix' experience I am able to have is actually the solution to my experience - instead of realizing that in covering up my experience / suppressing my experience with a 'better' experience - I am actually not solving my experience / not making my experience 'go away'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and make my experience 'go away' through covering up my experience / suppressing my experience using an energetic veil to create the illusion that I am having a 'different' experience.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize and see that whatever experience I am having - is the truth of me, is showing me the truth of what I accept and allow in myself, as myself - and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can 'change' my experience by covering it up with another experience as an energetic veil, instead of realizing that I am only ever hiding from the truth of me, within an energetic veil as illusion within which I am avoiding taking responsibility for what I accept and allow.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for hiding from my experience and not taking responsibility.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret not taking responsibility.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see the gift in this - which is that now I see how to be more effective, and see how I was making my experience more difficult through having participated in my mind. Now I see that I have been allowing myself to trust my mind - to trust my thoughts and the projected situations I see in my mind, in separation from reality, from what is actually happening Here.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that when I am experiencing anxiety about the future - I am creating that experience through participating in my mind. I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize and see that the reason I experience anxiety in relation to a future situation, is because I have placed myself as less than that situation - I am fearing that situation. I see I am experiencing anxiety / fear in relation to my appointment with andrea - and I see that this is because I am still placing myself as less than the situation, I am fearing that I will stumble over my words or do something incorrectly.

In this case, the thing I am fearing is the moment when it is time to go over the contract / payment options -- in my mind I am seeing myself as not knowing exactly what to say and do -- I am fearing that it will be awkward and that I will not be able to explain everything clearly.

What is the solution? Learn the material. Familiarize myself with what I am required to understand, so that it is no longer unfamiliar.
There is no other solution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, instead of simply learning what I am required to understand - go into my mind and place myself in an imaginary situation in the future in which I did not learn what was required to be learned.
Why would I do this? that is completely unnecessary and does not accomplish anything. This also shows that I am believing that I will 'not be able to' or am not 'capable' of learning what is required to be learned and understood.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am 'not capable' of learning and understanding what is required to be learned and understood. And within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to then worry about / imagine situations in which I will be required to understand what it is I believe I am not capable of understanding.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the mind as beliefs instead of participating Here, physically, directing myself in every breath within taking responsibility for what I see is required to be don - and not accepting or allowing myself to compromise my physical participation and directiveness through going into my mind and participating in projected alternate realities.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to be here as breath in every moment - and to within being here as breath, simply do what is required to be done, do what is relevant to be done Here in the physical - instead of going into my mind and creating / participating in imaginary situations and scenarios.

Sun. June 27 - experiences and self forgiveness

2010-06-27T14:35:00.000-05:00

Experiences / emotions / feelings that have come up today

sluggishness - towards working / participating / writing
tiredness - towards working / participating / writing
resistance towards working / participating / interacting / communicating
judgment - towards working / participating / communication / videos that people have made that I saw on youtube
fear - towards writing / working
anxiety - towards writing / working

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in tiredness / sluggishness in relation to / towards work and my daily participation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in / believe in my experience of sluggishness / tiredness in relation to work / my daily participation -- and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify participating in / believing in sluggishness / tiredness -- using the excuse / judgment that my work and daily participation is 'boring' --- this 'boringness' is a judgment within which I have defined my work / daily participation according to what I have experienced in the past in my life as 'what I like / enjoy doing' and 'what I dislike / don't enjoy doing'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my work / daily participation according to what I have experienced in the past as 'what I like / enjoy doing' and 'what I dislike / don't enjoy doing'. And within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define / judge my work / participation as 'boring'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define 'something that I experience as boring' as 'something that makes me tired / makes me experience tiredness'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and accept that if I do something that I experience as 'boring' that I will get tired.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define 'attention' as something that is difficult to maintain
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define 'attention' in separation of myself as 'something that is able to waiver / become less / be lost' instead of realizing and seeing that attention is Here as me as the breath of life in every moment -- it is not something that can be 'lost' or that can 'waiver'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use 'getting tired' as an excuse to 'not participate for a moment' -- within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept myself as being less than the work that is required to be done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place / see my daily work and participation as something that is 'more than me'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define certain musical styles as 'stupid'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define certain musical styles as 'dumb'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define certain musical styles as 'boring'
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I do not have to have a judgment / definition of a musical style

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see others through the eyes of personality, and to within this compare myself as a personality to others personalities and within that participate in judging / defining / labeling / assigning value to others' personalities based on what makes me feel the most superior / valuable / cool / interesting / intelligent

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when I wake up in the morning, believe that any emotion / feeling / though experience that arises is 'what I must experience' and 'how I must experience myself' and to believe that any feeling / emotional / thought experience is absolute and without question indicating 'who and what I must accept myself as and experience myself as' --- instead of realizing that myself as the physical, in every breath is NOT a feeling / emotion / though experience and thus any feeling / emotion / thought experience that arises in the morning when I wake up -- is not who I really am - but is merely an energetic experience that is running as a pattern that I have accepted myself to exist / experience myself within and as and through

Therefore, I breathe - I do not participate in believing that feeling / emotion / though experiences are 'who I really am' and that 'I must participate in these experiences'

I rather recognize that I have the ability to take responsibility to direct / stop these experiences because I created them as they exist in and as me, and thus I trust myself within walking this process of inevitably stopping / ending all such energetic experiences.

I am the Point of my Existence - Process Support Vlog

2010-06-26T18:35:00.000-05:00

giving perspective on wanting and needing attention from others as energy to maintain
the perception of stability within personality - where self has made energy / getting attention the 'point' of ones existence, instead of realizing Self is the only point of Self's existence

I am the Point of my Existence - Process Support Vlog

Changing Core Beliefs - Video Response to Bashar

2010-06-24T18:11:00.000-05:00

Interesting point about how channelers and the beings they channel both accept and allow inequality - despite talking about 'oneness' - which reveals that neither channel nor channeled being understand oneness and are only spreading deception

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IU0Hwg4xmYc

Self Forgiveness Jan. 27 2009 - money anxiety

2010-06-22T23:05:00.000-05:00

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience anxiety towards money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define money as the solution to anxiety about money - instead of realizing that my anxiety about money exists within me because I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough money, therefore the anxiety I experience when I think about not having enough money, motivates me to try and get money so that I do not have to experience anxiety anymore -- but in this, money is not the solution - because I am existing within the polarity of having enough / not enough money - indicating that I fear to lose money - because I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the polarity manifestations of this world of rich and poor -- with rich defined as 'free' and poor defined as 'not free' -- therefore within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define freedom as having money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that as long as I have money saved and hoarded away - I will be safe and free, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define safety as 'having money saved and hoarded away'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that money has power and value in and of itself - instead of realizing that the power and value that money has, is what I accept and allow myself to assign to money - making money in and of itself a sign of value and power - in this, creating the desire in me to have money, so that I can have that which is valuable and powerful - so that I can be valuable and powerful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define enslavement as 'not having money'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in relationship towards rich and poor - in separation of those who experience wealth and poverty, and to see poverty as something that I would not want to experience and therefore I must have money so that I do not have to exist like those who are poor

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the idea that 'having money equals having freedom'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the idea that 'not having money equals not having freedom'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by fear of not having enough money - instead of stopping within and as my experience of fear and not accepting or allowing myself to be influenced by what I am feeling - but instead, direct myself in self honesty

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear existing in poverty
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the polarity of rich and poor - instead of seeing that rich and poor are just ideas - points of a polarity used to justify the existence of both wealth and poverty

self Forgiveness Jan. 27 2009 - fear of not having money

2010-06-22T23:03:00.000-05:00

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I will not save enough money in time for my departure to south africa

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define security as having money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that self expression is something only possible with money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need to fear not having money in order to motivate myself to make money - instead of realizing that this is me defining money in separation from me, with me in relationship towards money

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that making money is simply a matter of me directing me - and does not require me to fear lack of money in order to for me to make money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to and as the idea of survival

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to and within the idea and belief that having more money means I have more time - and therefore to have more money is to have more time in which to live and express myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define living as that which can only be done in the amount of time which must be earned through making money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough time to express myself - instead of realizing that self expression is not defined by an idea of time - it does not exist in time - self expression is here as me in every moment of breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that life exists in moments of time which are earned through making money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the idea of time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough time

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that living does not exist in time - living is me here in every moment of breath, directing and expressing me in self honesty

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse of 'there isn't enough time' as a justification to not direct myself in every moment - accepting and allowing myself to be directed and controlled by my idea of there 'not being enough time'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry at the money system, instead of realizing that the money system exists within and as me, as a manifestation of what I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as - therefore to be angry at the money system is to be angry at me, and projecting anger is not an acceptable or effective way of directing what is here as myself because it implies that I see the money system as separate from me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the idea that 'personal freedom' can be bought by earning money and purchasing amounts of time in which to be 'free to live my life'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that personal freedom exists - as defined by an experience of being 'free to live and express myself' without having to consider anything but my personal experience - which is attained through money - instead of realizing that such 'personal freedom' is not real, because such an experience only exists if I see money as separate from me, if I see the world as separate from me, if I see others as separate from me - because then I am 'free' to exist in self interest, considering only my experience - and that the pursuit of 'personal freedom' is actually me confirming to me that I am enslaved to systems which I have not stood one and equal with

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to money, seeing money as a powerful force which controls me, instead of realizing that money is a manifestation of me

Self Forgiveness Jan. 3 2009 - body, health, shame, judgment, separation, spirituality

2010-06-22T22:57:00.000-05:00

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate with my body from the starting point of rebelling against 'healthy living' - to apparently prove to myself that I am not allowing myself to be controlled by the media or others regarding health - when in fact within such a starting point I am separating myself from my body, trying to prove to myself that I do not need to 'care' or be concerned about my body, so that I can confirm to myself in my mind that I am not one of 'those people' who live in fear of being unhealthy - and within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to stand one and equal with my body and support my body as me

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that my body is me - therefore in rebelling against 'being healthy' I am actually seeing my body as separate from me, and deliberately neglecting my body to prove to myself in my mind that I am not afraid of being unhealthy - within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my physical human body according to and as the polarity of healthy/unhealthy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that such a state of 'unhealth' exists - when in reality it is just my body, and the state of my body which is existing according to what I am accepting and allowing - and the same goes for the state of 'health'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the polarity belief that I am either healthy or unhealthy

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to listen to what my body is telling me

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to honor my body as one and equal with me, as me

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that it is not about deliberately doing whatever I want to my body to prove that I do not subscribe to the health polarity, -it is about standing one and equal with my body here as myself - and not accepting or allowing myself to create fears, rules, polarities within and as myself towards my body according to outside influences - but within this, using common sense and being self honest about what supports my body and what does not support

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to unconditionally stand one and equal with my body as myself and support my body, listen to my body, honor my body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect my body in small ways - doing this to prove to myself in my thoughts that I no longer subscribe to what I once did as being a lightworker, eating foods that I perceived would put me in a higher vibration

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ashamed and embarrassed with myself for having accepted and allowed myself to participate in being a lightworker

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have taken out my shame of being a lightworker on others who see themselves as lightworkers - trying to get them to see how stupid they are being instead of just sharing, directing and supporting as I see necessary in self honesty - me expressing me - not me abusing others through my ego - realizing that they are myself, and do not deserve to be abused for the sake of me covering up my shame

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ashamed with myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thoughts, instead of realizing that beyond showing me what I am accepting and allowing, my thoughts are useless and in following them I always lead myself into dishonesty

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as memories in my mind of myself as a lightworker - and to judge these memories of me - instead of realizing that I am not a memory, and it is unnecessary to hold such memories within my mind - and since I am not a memory, in judging my memories, I am judging myself - I can only ever judge myself

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that whenever I am judging something I have done in the past - that means I am judging me here and now - because my judgment exists here towards myself actually

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my judgments within the excuse and belief that if it happened in the past, then I am not judging me or another, I am just 'looking back in time' and judging something that I believe deserves judgment - instead of realizing the stupidity in this - because when I am judging - it does not matter whether I perceive that which I judge to exist in the past, present or future - it is all here and is all me judging me always

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within and as judgment - in seeing that when I am participating in judgment - I am existing as judgment toward myself in separation of me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the perception of time, within and as relationship towards my past - instead of realizing that all that I am is always here - therefore in looking back at my past, I am actually looking at what is here as myself - so to define my past as memories, as pictures, is to separate myself from my past, seeing my past as events that exist as pictures that have happened 'back there in time' instead of realizing that the picture is just a picture in my mind, and that the event itself exists here within and as myself

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to be gentle with my body - in realizing that my body is me, so in being gentle with my body I am being gentle with me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the idea of myself as an outsider, a rebel

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that in seeing myself as an outsider, I am accepting that there is something separate from me which is there to fight, to resist - when in reality, what resists, persists - thus in embracing all points as myself, I become all points and direct myself as those points

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to determine my actions based on what others do and say - so that I don't have to be self honest with me in every moment, so that I don't have to trust me and direct me in every moment here as the breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as comparison

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the polarity of resist/submit

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define standing up as resisting

I am here, I direct me in self honesty as the breath in every moment - that's it

Self Forgiveness Jan. 10 2009 - being nice, fear of violence, confrontation, awkwardness, peace

2010-06-22T22:49:00.000-05:00

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give value to my idea of niceness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my idea of niceness to avoid awkwardness and confrontation

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I can only fear awkwardness and confrontation if I exist as personality, as an idea and definition of myself - and that who I really am here as the breath in unconditional self honest expression is not able to be awkward - therefore it is stupid to use personality as a means to avoid awkwardness, as awkwardness only exists through personality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear confrontation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define stability according to my idea of niceness, wherein if I am nice to people then I will not experience conflict, and I will then be stable - instead of realizing that this is not real stability, it is an idea of stability which actually exists within and as the polarity of safe/unsafe - with unsafe defined as vulnerable - able to be harmed or abused, and safe defined as actions taken to preserve and maintain my personality of niceness, to avoid vulnerability and conflict and hurt

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define vulnerability as being able to be hurt and abused

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the polarity of safe/unsafe

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the words of others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear physical violence being done unto me

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see and realize that since all others are actually me, myself - that I am not actually able to really be hurt or harmed - and such a fear of physical violence and hurt being done unto me exists as the fear of losing myself, the fear of not existing

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that all fear of physical violence and harm being done unto me is actually the fear of me not existing - but since I am all that exists, that is impossible

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am required to serve others' personalities by ensuring that their feelings don't get hurt - otherwise I will not be able to exist in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not existing in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself to express me unconditionally in self honesty no matter who I am with, because I fear to lose the illusion of stability that I experience when I am nice to people and am able to avoid conflict

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that conflict can only exist if both beings participating are self dishonest - thus if I am self honest, and unconditionally here - I experience no conflict - and if someone directs words or actions towards me that is abusive or violent, it is a result of what they are accepting and allowing within them and exists as inner conflict within themselves - just as my conflicts exist within myself as what I accept and allow

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the polarity of peace/conflict, by holding onto my ideas and definitions and fears of conflict

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the polarity of peace/conflict

Self Forgiveness Nov. 9 2008 - beauty, art, ugliness, love, judgment

2010-06-22T22:47:00.000-05:00

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to others based on the idea of value a being has according to the standards of beauty presented by this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the standards of beauty presented to me by this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as having less value than people who embody the standards of beauty presented to me by this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people as ugly or beautiful based on the standards of beauty presented to me by this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the polarity of ugly and beautiful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people who embody my idea of attractive as having more value than those who do do not

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people who embody my idea of ugly as having less value than those who do not

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed to define quality of life as having money and being attractive according to the standards of beauty and success presented to me by this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that money equals value

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define life according to money and beauty

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to embody the standard of beauty presented to me by this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to embody and attain to the standards of success presented to me by this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that money = success = life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the my idea of beauty is real

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see and realize the separation implied within the idea that beauty and success = value = life - wherein, if one has money one has value
if one has beauty one has value
if one has neither beauty nor money, then one is inherently valueless according to the system's standards and definitions of value
and therefore one without beauty or money is seen as worthless, and therefore bases their entire existence around achieving wealth and success, so as to feel worthy, and to appear as and be treated as worthy and valuable by others

and, when someone has beauty and yet is not successful and has no money, they are seen as valuable and precious, because of their inherent beauty, and are therefore treated as more than an ugly person without money, simply because beauty = value

so, by virtue of birth, people are born either inherently valuable or inherently valueless, based on the standards of beauty and money

and also, beauty includes the 'beauty' of art and music - so therefore if you have an ugly person with miraculous talent and capability to produce works of 'beauty' for others to experience --- that person is seen as beautiful by virtue of their 'creative talent'

so, if you have someone who is beautiful and an amazingly talented artist, and has money --- they are basically god, worthy of love, adoration and praise

and look at what god represents: creativity, beauty, and abundance - and therefore god is worthy of love, adoration and praise -- which is why life is disregarded by all in favor of the worship of beauty and money

the world is for the most part 'ugly', so naturally people seek that which embodies the idea of beauty --- therefore heaven is such an attractive idea, because it is the embodiment of beauty as defined by the standards and definitions of beauty presented by this world

thus, in existing within such a starting point, taking into consideration life as all as one as equal, is totally illogical and incomprehensible - as the idea and definition of life as defined by beauty and value according to the standards and definitions of the system, can only exist in separation from all as one as equal

therefore culture is truly a cult, where everyone worships beauty and money in their way, and no one sees life, no one sees common sense or self honesty - because to see common sense would mean giving up everything that life in this world is based on - beauty and money

and with sex as the orgasmic experience of ritualistic 'fulfillment' and 'satisfaction' achieved when two beautiful/talented/successfull people come together in an explosion of divine gratification -- communing in the presence of god as beauty and money

and love? we are so warped and delusional that we use the word love based solely on the value and worth we've assigned someone or something according to the standards of beauty/talent/success

and we proclaim that 'love is all there is' and 'love is the solution' -- but if over night all the money went away and everyone turned ugly and the 'beauty' of nature disappeared -- what would there be left to love? we've never loved anything, because we've never loved ourselves, we've never loved life itself - all one and equal -- we've made statements of unconditional love for all in 'oneness' -- but these statements are made from the starting point of 'loving' the 'beauty of life' - not the beingness of life itself as all as one as equal

therefore beauty and love as defined by and of this world, are a total dishonor to life, a total dishonor to self

Self Forgiveness Oct 29 2008 - Clothing, appearance, judgments, fitting in, self acceptance

2010-06-22T22:44:00.000-05:00

I realized that the reason I still have judgments about the way people look, what they wear, is because when I was young, I never fit in - because I didn't like the same things, have the same interests, behave the same as most others around me - so, in the fifth grade I started to notice that people who were in different groups wore different clothes - and I started to experiment with adopting the styles of others in order to fit in, wanting to be accepted. it was confusing, because I couldn't understand why people would insult and bully each other based on the way they looked/spoke/what they did ---- and I was afraid of these people because I was smaller, and I judged them to have power over me - and yet at the same time I wanted their acceptance so that I could feel powerful as well, and so I wouldn't be hurt or bullied. so as a defense, I started to change my appearance, hoping to blend in with people who I saw as being more safe because they were in groups. I started defining myself based on my clothes, and would frequently shift between styles according to people who seemed to be sure of themselves, and accepted by others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to program myself to define myself based on my appearance and clothing
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress myself because I did not fit in
and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like an outsider
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take the words of others personally when they called me weird or stupid because I didn't fit in
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the way I look because others told me I looked weird
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not worthy when others rejected me in school
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am stupid and and not worthy of accepting myself, because others rejected me in school
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to the words of others in taking them personally, instead of realizing that their words reflected who they are, and that I allowed myself to react with hurt and rejection because i didn't stand up and accept me in the moment
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to depend on words of validation of others so that I can feel like I am worthy
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am inferior to those who fit into groups
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am worthless unless I fit into a group, because I allowed myself to take the words of others personally when they bullied me and spoke words of rejection, and then judged myself as worth less than those in groups
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others based on the way they look, because in doing that I feel like I have power over them, because I was able to change my appearance to fit in with others which made me feel like I was worth more than those who didn't fit in - instead of realizing that in that I was allowing myself to do exactly as had been done unto me, because I took the words of others personally and and did not stand up for myself in the moment - I became that which I reacted to

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a good person, and therefore when I have a thought judging another on the way they look, or what they are wearing, I justify the thought, and hide from who I am by constructing the thought in such a way where I project my judgment into a 'third party' within my mind, and assign the judgment to this 'third party', seeing it as the kind of judgment someone else would make about the person I see -- instead of realizing that it is myself that is making the judgment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define judgments as bad
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as good
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my judgments so that I can remain the good person I define myself as, instead of realizing that my judgments reflect what I allow in me - they are me, therefore I am the one judging

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people as worth more that fit my accepted standards of how one should look
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people as worth less that don't fit my accepted standards of how one should look
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself based on my accepted standards of how I should look
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to others, because in comparing myself I am able to upgrade my standards of how I should look, to ensure that the way I look is accepted by those around me - because I have created standards of how I should look based on others reactions of acceptance/rejection
therefore as long as I stay within my standards of of how I should look, I am safe - because then people will accept me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have standards of how I should look
I forgiv emyself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form standards of how I shoould look based on the words of others of either accepting or rejecting me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define safety and security according to and as staying within the safe standards of how I should look - because then I will be accepted and feel good about myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that acceptance has anything to do with another being - instead of realizing that I can only accept myself
I forgiv emyself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself based on clothing
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to memories of not fitting in in school
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define power according to fitting in with others
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define people according to my idea of worth
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to my idea of worth
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to depend on comparison in order to maintain control of myself, because in comparing myself to others, I am able to determine in which ways I am able to manipulate the way I look, so that others can be manipulated into accepting me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame school for not supporting me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for not accepting me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame 'the world' for not supporting me
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that everything I have ever felt, has been a result of what I accepted and allowed in me through abdicating myself to the mind
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define support according to the support my parents gave me when I felt bad in school
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I never stood up in school because I suppressed my feeling of powerlessness and inferiority through anger
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use anger to suppress and control the way I feel
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in school, react to accepted and allowed feelings of powerlessness and inferiority with anger
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have defined my anger as a safe place to be, because when I feel powerless, inferior, not in control, if I get angry then I feel powerful, in control, safe
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define safety according to anger
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to depend on anger so that I can feel in control of myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to need to be in control
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to carry around my past as a burden
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to let go of the past
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my anger as bad, and in that suppress my anger
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to separate myself from my feelings and emotions, instead of accepting them here as me, and directing them here as myself

I am here, I direct me in every moment - no suppression, no judgment, no separation - my feelings are me, my thoughts are me - what I allow me to be - I investigate them and direct them as myself, and remain here in breath

Self Forgiveness Oct 18 2008 - Ego, Oneness, Expression

2010-06-22T22:42:00.000-05:00

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to speak to people from the starting point of ego

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to unconditionally realize that other people are myself

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to participate with people unconditionally and self honestly

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to express me unconditionally

Self Support with Self Forgiveness Oct. 18 2008 - Regret, hope, love

2010-06-22T22:40:00.000-05:00

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to do forgiveness from the starting point of wanting another to love me

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to do forgiveness from the starting point of regret

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to do forgiveness from the starting point of wanting others to accept me

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to do forgiveness from the starting point of comparison

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to do forgiveness from the starting point of self judgment

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to do forgiveness from the starting point of fear

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to do forgiveness from the starting point of denial

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to do forgiveness from the starting point of belief

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to do forgiveness from the starting point of expectation

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to do forgiveness from the starting point of wanting to be more

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to do forgiveness from the starting point of inferiority

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to do forgiveness from the starting point of knowledge

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to do forgiveness from the starting point of thoughts

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to do forgiveness from the starting point of hope

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to hope

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to unconditionally let go of hope

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to unconditionally support me

Self Support with Self Forgiveness Oct. 18 2008

2010-06-22T22:38:00.000-05:00

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to unconditionally embrace myself as all as one as equal as myself

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to take self responsibility for all as myself

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to unconditionally embrace myself

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to love myself unconditionally

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to support myself unconditionally

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to to judge myself

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to be enslaved to another being

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to unconditionally stand up for myself as all as one as equal, here

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe I am inferior to others

I forgive myself myself that I have not allowed myself to unconditionally accept myself

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to unconditionally forgive myself

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to unconditionally forgive myself as myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret not standing up for myself unconditionally here, as myself, for myself

I forgive myself that I have not unconditionally allowed myself to realize that I am actually able to forgive myself

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to unconditionally let go of the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to isolate myself in my mind, believing that I am alone and separate from all others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame myself for allowing myself to be manipulated by another

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame another for the way I feel

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to unconditionally realize that I have allowed myself to suffer, through accepting and allowing myself to believe that others have power over me

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to unconditionally trust me

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to do forgiveness from the starting point of wanting others to accept me

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to unconditionally support me

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to unconditionally embrace me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my past for my suffering

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to unconditionally let go

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to unconditionally breathe

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to unconditionally be here

Self Forgiveness - Consciousness Entity

2010-06-22T03:36:00.000-05:00

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the energy I experience within me as feelings, desires, emotions, urges - is actually who I really am - instead of realizing and seeing that who I really am is not energy - is not an experience of feeling, or emotion, or urge, or desire - but that who I really am is constant - silent - stillness - darkness - no picture - no voice as words arising inside me within the space of my head as 'my mind' -- who I really am is here as the physical - with the physical - as every breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my self expression away to a system as the mind, as thoughts, feelings, reactions, emotions - within accepting and allowing myself to believe that who I really am exists as a definition - as a 'personality' with a first name, middle name and last name. And I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate and give up my self expression to energy - within believing and accepting that energy is what dictates and determines who I am and how I express and what I do, and within believing and accepting that this is the way things must be, and the way things have always been, and the way things always will be. Instead of realizing that this has merely been me accepting consciousness to be who I really am, and believing consciousness to be who I really am within having accepted and allowed myself to become a completely…..interesting -- I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have never been aware - I have only been existing as a entity constructed out of knowledge as information forming the patterns existent as the programming within and as my unconscious, subconscious and conscious mind. I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that awareness is not me as personality as the consciousness entity - becoming an 'aware consciousness entity' - but rather I am seeing that who I am as awareness, is here as the physical, in the physical, with the physical - not as an entity per se - just Here.

Bush's Memoir in November 2010 a Dream Book-Deal

2010-06-03T18:45:00.000-05:00

Blame is an Act of Personality

2010-06-02T18:59:00.000-05:00

blame is simply a function of personality

though we are responsible for allowing starvation - 'self blame' as an act of self judgment or guilt or regret is irrelevant and useless

we can blame ourselves but it is simply emotional sentiment

that's why we take responsibility for what we are aware of and direct it according to how we see we can make a change

when someone blames another for 'making them feel bad' for instance - blame is simply act of defending ones own personality and trying to control another's personality to 'right the wrong' that they perceive has been 'done unto them'

blame exists where something is not being directed within taking self responsibility

if someone breaks into your house and murders your children - it is useless to blame the murderer - the blame is an act of personality, an act of emotion

blaming the murderer does not stop murder or breaking and entering

if we were self honest we would see murder and abuse is allowed every day - we support a system of murder and abuse

when we stand up and begin to direct our lives within no more accepting and allowing a system of murder and abuse - when we act as the principle of what is best for all within Equality and support a solution that is best for all which will not allow murder and abuse - when we place ourselves in the world as a point that assists and supports others to see the principle of how abuse and murder has come to exist - we are assisting and supporting all beings as ourselves to eventually realize the same principle and inevitably all beings will stop harming each other as all beings will have realized that in directing this world as ourselves within what is best for all - we ensure that no harm will come to us ourselves, or another as ourselves

blame is a futile act of personality that only supports people to remain within inequality and abuse through remaining within personality as separation

Principle and Personality

2010-05-31T21:19:00.001-05:00

Woman's Emotions Send Man to Jail

2010-05-23T19:59:00.000-05:00

Breakdown

2010-05-20T21:50:00.000-05:00

Boy Kidnapped from Church

2010-05-20T08:57:00.000-05:00

30 Kids Raped in Church

2010-05-20T08:55:00.000-05:00

World Cup Scalpers face Fine or Jail

2010-05-20T08:53:00.000-05:00

Murder and Demons 2010

2010-05-20T08:52:00.000-05:00

Cursed by the Universe

2010-05-20T08:47:00.000-05:00

Honoring the Earth with Equal Money for All

2010-05-16T22:44:00.000-05:00

the physical is showing us what unconditional love really is - it is here providing a context in which we are able to see the effect that 'who we each are' has on each other - space and time gives us the opportunity to see the consequence of what we accept, the opportunity to self reflect and to correct ourselves to stop creating the consequence

in this world, those without money are occupied with survival - those without money feel the physical pain of being deprived of what they require to function - those without money show us the extent to which we will go to survive when motivated by physical pain
- living in garbage, murdering each other, prostituting ourselves to be able to get food.
they show us the depths of self defeat, desperation and misery that comes with being denied a dignified life - killing themselves with drugs, alcohol

those of us with money have the time and comfort in which to self reflect and question our reality

but most are rather occupied with the desire for more, chasing pictures in our minds of something always apparently better than what is here

it is a shame - because we do not want to see that everything we want, everything we believe makes us who we are and which defines us - has been something placed into us from birth by someone or something - parents, teachers, media.

our ability to see our reality, to see the world around us is compromised through the process of plugging into a virtual world, a virtual reality in our minds that consists of ideas and definitions of who and what we apparently are and what we are apparently here to do - what our apparent purpose in life is. But what we perceive our 'purpose' to be is nothing but a copy of what others have always done - how others have always lived - what others have always accepted themselves to be.

We are not given the opportunity to discover ourselves - we are rather seeded with desires, fears, beliefs, ideas from all sides from the moment we are born and become capable of being taught.

when we are very young - we see the world - we see the physical - we are Here.
But we are taken away from Here - taken away from the world and swept into a fantasy land, and our eyes begin to see only desire - we stop seeing the world around us and we lose the ability to consider our reality with common sense.

we are taught how to justify, taught to hide who we really are - we are taught that a personality as a presentation of ourselves is normal - and that it is normal to use this personality to manipulate and deceive to gain the trust of others so that we can find security and gratification in relationships, friendships, jobs. We are taught that we are here to survive - that we must do what is told of us because that is how one succeeds in life - but we just become clones of those that brought us into this world - we are their successors - and we are taught that our purpose is to bring new people into this world so that we ourselves may have successors as well.

By this point, we have completely forgotten about the physical world we are in. Our attention is only in a mental projection of somewhere we would like to be. And our actions reflect our desire to fulfill that projection and get to where we want to be 'in life'.

the physical is giving us the opportunity to see who we are as beings - the physical is giving us the opportunity to see that when we are only living in self interest, separate from each other and the world within separate, mental bubbles of desire - that the world we end up creating is one where no one trusts each others, everyone fears to be harmed and for our comfort and ease to be taken away, we fear to lose the security of our relationships and happiness and seek out new ways to secure our personal bubble from being burst.

We are so possessed with this mental program that we do not even acknowledge the physical pain that so many human beings are experiencing because they do not have the fuel that we have - our fuel is money, and we are only out for a joy ride - our bodies are our vehicles and we are not driving responsibly. We are not even looking at the road - we are in the car but the windows are blocked and we are wearing virtual reality headsets that project a false world - a picture world that we believe is real. And we are only just trying to win the game that is being projected, more money to gain a higher level of the game, because the more money we have the further away from pain and discomfort and misery we can get.

we are not honoring the physical - we are not honoring Earth. We are not honoring our source.
All beings are children of the Earth - we are one family - we have one body.
but we are numb to the pain that our body is experiencing.
Energy, feelings, thoughts are our pain medication - keep stimulating the energy and it keeps flowing, ensuring that we do not feel the pain of a physical body that is being ignored, neglected - the physical body of Earth and all physical beings on Earth.

For those of us who are willing to stop the game, willing to stop chasing the energy of illusion and start caring for what is real - for what matters - start caring for the Earth and for each other - there is a solution.
We firstly can start caring for ourselves - we can forgive ourselves for becoming a player in a game that creates abuse and suffering and delusion. We can stop the mental bubble and be Here once more, as we were when we were very young.

We can start honoring ourselves - and realizing that to honor ourselves is to honor each other, to honor the Earth from whence we came. Stopping the mental bubble through which we have separated ourselves from the Earth and each other is what we can firstly do to start honoring the Physical reality that is here supporting us to see who we are and what we are doing.

Those of us with money and time have the ability to make a difference - we have the ability to stop and correct ourselves and start living within honoring all that are Here in the Physical.
We can correct the words that we are living as 'who we are' - because the words we are living is the information upon which we base our participation.
We can redefine the words we are living within what best honors Life, within what best honors the Physical source of ourselves. In this we redefine our participation in our world and stop fueling others to remain within the mental bubble of separation and acceptance of the ways of the past.

We can give everyone the Equal opportunity to self reflect and correct the words they are living as well. Those of us with money have the ability to make a difference through transforming the system that determines the physical experience we are born into.

An Equal Money system is the way we can give everyone an Equal Opportunity to begin honoring Life. We can remove the occupation with survival, and remove the occupation with the desire for more and fear of having nothing - we can stop the polarity of rich and poor through giving everyone equal money - and in that remove the fight for survival, fear of loss and the want for more.

We have limited time here on Earth - the life we are living right now is what is relevant.
We have the opportunity to use the time we have to begin honoring the support provided to us by the physical as an act of unconditional love. We have the opportunity to face the pain and suffering we are creating in this body we share - and correct ourselves so that pain and suffering is no longer created.

Self Honestly, religion and spirituality do not honor the Earth, do not honor Life, do not honor the Physical. They call the physical an illusion, and say that it is okay to keep chasing desire in a virtual reality mental bubble. They say - do not be concerned with the physical - the 'afterlife' is what is real. They teach us to justify the pain that others experience, by saying there are 'lessons' to be learned.

We have the opportunity to stop this deception based in the desire to escape responsibility.
We have the opportunity to once and for all learn our lesson. The lesson to learn is that we are making this world what it is. And we can make heaven on earth if we take the necessary steps within honoring the Earth, honoring Life and doing what is best for All.

In this life, we have the opportunity to do what god has never done - we can answer our own prayers, and be the savior we are waiting for.

benefits of equal education - no one left behind

2010-05-16T13:22:00.000-05:00

At the moment education is there for those who can afford it - to give you a competitive advantage over others. Obviously if everyone had equal education from a young age in how to become an effective, self perfected participant in our world - it would be easier for everyone to take responsibility for a point that best suits them - and no one would be left behind and be called a failure or lazy

2 The Matrix of Perfection - Part 2

2010-05-14T11:43:00.000-05:00

Anti-Hunger Campaign

2010-05-12T09:31:00.000-05:00

Self Perfection while in a Limited Body and limited reality is Possible

2010-05-11T20:05:00.000-05:00

2 The Quantum Mind and The Number of God

2010-05-11T20:03:00.000-05:00

1 The Quantum Mind and The Number of God

2010-05-11T20:02:00.000-05:00

Energetic Substance Relationship Entities of Consciousness

2010-05-11T20:01:00.000-05:00

Amazing Grace the American Way Happiness Guaranteed

2010-05-11T19:59:00.000-05:00

Activate your Higher Mind to Manifest Money!!!

2010-05-11T19:57:00.000-05:00

Attract Money and Bliss FAST - Power visualization

2010-05-11T19:56:00.000-05:00

The Science of Equality and Oneness

2010-04-22T11:33:00.000-05:00

Epigenetics is a new science that shows we are able to change our genetic programming through changing our thoughts / acceptances / beliefs / participation

This shows that we are each actually entirely responsible for what we are passing on to our children genetically - we can no longer accept our genetic patterns as 'unchangeable' - we have the responsibility to ensure that we align our genetic design with that which will actually support our children to develop as effective beings not influenced or limited by past patterns / disorders / fears / thoughts / limitations coming from previous generations

It is essentially the Science that proves that who and what we are, down to the DNA level - is Equal and One to what we Accept and Allow within and as Ourselves.

Quantum science along with Epigenetics shows the interconnectedness of all things - which implies that existence, that creation is actually 'Us' - that there is actually no 'God' as 'creator' - and that we are totally responsible for how existence exists - that we ourselves Created Everything.

This science also shows that any form of Self-Interest - where what is Best for All as the Whole is not being considered - is actually a Crime against Life, an Act of Separation - a Crime against the Whole. Because to allow Self-Interest as Separation - is to place yourself in a position of Conflict with the Whole.

This science also shows that Evolution, has been a preprogrammed design that we ourselves somehow trapped ourselves in.

Desteni is not making anything up. We are simply more effective at seeing what is going on, because we are Assisting and Supporting ourselves within Self Honesty and with Self Forgiveness to stop existing as fear, desire, reactions, feelings, ideas, beliefs, and self definitions that would otherwise keep us trapped in a limited personality design through which we would merely be an 'observer' making opinions about reality through programmed beliefs.

Human Beings like to talk about 'change' - but the implication of Change is that what once 'was' - will no longer be.

Desteni stands for Real, Actual Change - and we are starting with ourselves. We will take the necessary steps to establish a New World System that will support Individuals to Self-Realize and transcend the past, and which will end starvation, poverty and survival-motivated crime and violence.

What we suggest, is that the sooner one becomes Self Honest - the easier the transition will be to the New System. In the New System - old patterns of self interest, greed, violence, dishonesty, manipulation, deception, separation will not be supported.

It's not 'Desteni Honesty' -- it's Self Honesty. It's not 'Desteni Sense' -- it's Common Sense.

Desteni is a Call to those with the Courage to Stand Up and Change - a Call to those who are willing to Care about All Life.

Why is Starvation not Murder? / Bashar Responses

2010-03-02T12:25:00.000-06:00

Free Choice is Crime in the Capitalist System

2010-01-23T05:29:00.000-06:00

In the current capitalist money system, money is the resource that we require in order to have the ability to 'choose' how we live.
When you look at the corporation for instance, if the corporation has enough money, it has the 'free choice' or the 'right' to buy out all other suppliers or manufacturers of a particular commodity such as computers, medicine, the internet, for example, and it then has the autonomy or the 'right' to decide or choose how to manufacture, market and circulate its commodity in a way which will generate the most money for the corporation, ensuring that that particular corporation will always have enough of the resource of money that is required to be able to control their particular commodity and decide with 'free choice' the nature of the access people have to that commodity.

Now within this we can see there is a problem. Because within the current capitalist system, anyone with enough money, has the 'right' or the 'free choice' to capitalize on people's basic needs and requirements by acquiring a position of control over a necessary commodity. This results in people becoming dependent on a particular corporation which provides a particular commodity such as food or internet or computers, and within this the people have no 'choice' but to support that corporation and submit to the rules it has set up, so that they can have access to the commodity they require. And, the result of the corporation being able to generate massive amounts of money through controlling a necessary commodity, is that the small group directing the corporation is guaranteed the ability to live any lifestyle they desire, have whatever they want whenever they want, and as much as they want.
Now, this luxurious 'free choice' lifestyle they have attained to, is only possible because within the current capitalist system, they are allowed to capitalize on the needs and requirements of others through controlling the access to commodities.

Now, we can see that within this, money itself is not the problem. The problem is the nature of the capitalist system, which allows people to abuse the resource of money for their own gain, to attain to a position of 'free choice' at the expense of others. The problem is that Money is not based on a supportive, sustainable, non-abusive Principle. It is a resource which, if we are able to get our hands on it, we have 'free reign over' in terms of what we 'choose' to use it for. The scope and power of our 'choices' is dependent on how much money we have and are able to maintain control of - because in having control of large amounts of money, we have the ability to attain control over the very commodities that people require to have access to. This results in the very purpose of people's lives being to get, have and maintain control of money - because in having money, we are ensured our survival, comfort and enjoyment, through our ability to access the basic survival requirements as well as all the 'luxuries' that are available. Thus the nature of how we live is that of a constant 'race to the top' - which is really the race to the position within the system in which we have the 'most free choices available' through having the most money. Therefore 'free choice' within the current Capitalist system, is not 'free' at all. The System is 'selling' us the ability to live, selling us 'choice' - and in order to buy our position of 'choice', we allow the system, the corporations of this world to capitalize on our basic needs and requirements - because it is the very system, these very corporations - that manufacture and provide us with the commodities and luxuries we desire to choose. We thus cannot 'afford' to stop accepting the current system, because we are too busy trying to afford to live.

The Capitalist System thus actually supports the disregard of the problems of the Human Condition such as poverty, lack of education, starvation, lack of access to medicine and health care and sanitary living conditions, because in order for the Capitalist System to remain functional, all points of what the Human Being needs and requires to survive and exist in this world, must be controlled, and the basic needs of the Human Being must be capitalized on, to ensure the Human Being's continued dependence on and obedience to the System.

The Capitalist System as it exists, is thus a Criminal system; giving people the 'right' to abuse the Resources provided Unconditionally by the Earth, by allowing people to abuse the Resource of Money to attain a position of control over the Earth's Resources, wherein they capitalize on the needs and requirements of Human Beings.

And within this, through the Individual participating in the Capitalist system from the starting point of attaining through Money, a position of 'free choice' - the Individual is directly supporting the Crimes of the System, directly supporting money to be used as a means to capitalize on the basic needs and requirements of Human Beings - needs and requirements that the Earth Unconditionally provides Resources to fulfill - Resources which are being abused, through the Capitalist System giving permission for the Resource of Money to be abused.

Kingdom of Heaven is Equal Money for All

2010-01-02T06:56:00.000-06:00

Harmony

2010-01-02T06:55:00.000-06:00

Clothing in the Equal Money System

2010-01-02T06:45:00.000-06:00

In an Equal Money system, it will be most practical to to have a standard, Equally practical line of clothing - like the communist's uniforms - Equal practical shoe, Equal practical boot, Equal practical pant, Equal practical shirt, Equal practical jacket, Equal practical raincoat, Equal practical socks, Equal practical underwear, Equal practical hat, Equal practical short, etc. With the purpose of clothing being the support of the physical body to be able to function effectively and comfortably in the physical reality.

There will be no more 'department stores' filled with your 'choice' of unnecessary clothing requiring the enslavement of many to produce 'nice things' for the few - to support the elite's beliefs of 'free expression' and 'individuality' through clothing - which is just an industry designed to generate money. Just like the 'hairstyle and hair-care' industry.

If we want 'different' clothing - we can make it ourselves, or those who enjoy making clothing can open a shop.

EQUALITY for DUMMIES

2009-12-04T07:49:00.001-06:00

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Are YOU Mind Controlled? Test Yourself!!!!

2009-11-21T23:41:00.000-06:00

What is mind control? Is it something that determine your choices and perceptions? Are you FREE at all? Is your reason CONTROLLED? Do you have the guts to find out what is fact and what is control?
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Equal Money System - who will do the 'shitty' jobs?

2009-11-13T11:19:00.000-06:00

Poverty is a Violation of Basic Human Rights

2009-11-12T22:23:00.000-06:00

Now, I´m aware that the Point I keep making within these reports sounds kind of repetitive, but the Fact of the Matter is: We have Never Seen or Considered the simplistic Point of CommonSense that problems such as violent crime, murder, theft, also prostitution, the drug trade, war: is motivated by Money they´re all motivated by Self-Preservation within Survival within Fighting to Survive.
And also the Point that Survival, the Basic Requirements for Survival and a comfortable, dignified Existence in this World: That is a Human Right That is a Basic Human Right and that is not Seen and has Never been Seen or Considered. I mean, that is evidenced by the Fact that we Exist within a System that functions within Survival. It does not function within giving Everyone Equal access to the resources that are required to Survive and Exist in Dignity and comfort, and that is because we have agreed that Money in itself is actually the Primary Resource and that this Resource of Money is not something that is automatically given to Everyone and therefore Directly results in the creation of all of these problems motivated by Survival and lack of Money and the Point is that it´s absolutely preposterous to continue Existing within the Acceptance of the current System and the current way we live within Survival and Self-Preservation, because in this, we simply are Allowing all of these problems to continue Existing.
http://www.desteni.co.za http://www.desteni-money.net a Report by Matti Freeman from Desteni in support of the campaign for a Dignified life for all with Equal Money as resource
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WE DROP DEAD AS YOU GO FUCK AROUND (ELONY'S SONG)

2009-11-12T22:15:00.001-06:00

I wrote this song after having watched a documentary called "The Hidden Faces Of AIDS" only finished recording today. The song speaks for itself. Thank you for watching and listening to my videos -stay tuned, more to come.

Equal Money for All is not NWO and it's not slavery

2009-11-12T22:13:00.000-06:00

Equal Money for All is not NWO and it's not slavery

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Democracy and the Beast Part Two

2009-11-11T07:47:00.001-06:00

Democracy and the Beast part 1

2009-11-11T07:46:00.001-06:00

FRIED TO DEATH in attempt to get Money for Survival

2009-11-11T07:44:00.000-06:00

Welcome to another edition of True African Stories
This is Matti Freeman Here at Desteni and today I´m looking at a story from the Daily Sun, reported on the 9 of November, Monday. The story is called: Fried to Death and it´s a report about a man who was attempting to steal electrical cables from a power station. He was cutting the cables with an iron saw and he already had some cut-offs packed and ready to go, but in the process of cutting the cables, trying to steal them he was fried to death by 98.000 volt of electricity. He´s body was so badly burned that he could not be identified. Now in this story, the man is called a greedy Inyoka, Inyoka meaning snake, so the man is called a greedy snake for trying to steal electric cables from a power station.
Now Greed implies that you have enough of something and yet you want more so if this man was indeed greedy for electricity, why would he resort to attempting to steal power cables from a live power station? I mean he climbed into the frame-work of this power station and with an iron saw was cutting the cables. Obviously an extremely dangerous thing to do and obviously not something someone greedy for more electricity would do I mean, this is obviously an act of desperation.
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Sinking in Stink - a Shitty $tory

2009-10-23T04:07:00.000-05:00

STINKER OF A PROBLEM
By MKHUSELI SIZANI

Some Eastern Cape townships are sinking in shit.
People in shacks are suffering the most - often sewage pipes run from RDP houses and spit out shit at the shacks!
Missionvale and KwaNoxolo townships are hard hit by the sewage crisis.
Bukeka Kota (38), a squatter in KwaNoxolo, told Daily Sun:
"We've been sinking deeper in this shit over the past 10 years. Sometimes the drainpipes are overflowing so badly that we cannot even sleep in our shacks - we have to go and look for shelter in a community hall. We've asked municipal officials many times to come and fix the problem, but it's just getting worse."
Bukeka said the kids living in KwaNoxolo have bad sores and a skin rash because they get in contact with the shitty water every day.
"Our clothes and furniture have been damaged by this kak flowing into our shacks." Bukeka complained.
Recently the Eastern Cape local government department admitted that only 14 out of 25 municipalities have reached the required standard of waste water treatment.
But the Nelson Mandela Bay Municipality says its sewage system is in good condition.
Kupido Baron from the municipality said:
"The problem is caused by people who use newspaper instead of toilet paper. They also throw foreign objects into the toilet and then the drains get blocked."

---COMMENTARY BY MATTI FREEMAN:

The problem is caused by people who use newspaper instead of toilet paper? Toilet paper costs money, and these people are already struggling simply to afford a shack to live in and food to eat. The widespread unsanitary, and undignified conditions people are forced to live in in this world due to lack of money, is obviously unacceptable - this is not the dark ages. It is perfectly possible to give everyone equal support, clean living conditions, so that they can live in dignity and be able to afford toilet paper. Those of us with more than enough money, take our comfort and cleanliness for granted, making spiteful and blame filled remarks about people who did not themselves choose to exit in poverty. And yet so many of us have the nerve and the ego to call ourselves compassionate. A true act of compassion, a true act of care would be to give everyone Equal Money, Equal support, Equal dignity, Equal cleanliness.
Whole townships flooded with shit, causing children to suffer from sores and skin rash - by no fault or choice of their own.
Answer me this: How is it that in a world where a space program exists, are such unacceptable living conditions for human beings justified? In Common Sense, the answer again is self interest. And the fact that such stories are not reported, are not given attention daily in the mainstream media, only proves that we are afraid of facing our responsibility for what we as human beings allow to exist in this world.

2009-10-23T04:01:00.000-05:00

Life with Equal Money

2009-10-13T01:56:00.000-05:00

In looking at the nature of the experience of those of us participating in the system in the developed world, able to hold a position where we can generate sufficient money to survive and get by and have a level of comfort, in looking at the basic problems of our experience: the fight for survival, existing in the position of being required to maintain a position within the system in order to keep living, we can see that change is a topic often discussed, change and reform. We desire for things to be reformed in a way that suits us, in a way that supports us. We desire ease and comfort, and would like things to be less complicated. We desire freedom. However when we look at how change exists, in terms of changes made within the system, we can see that there has never really been any real, actual change. We have never actually been given freedom by those who promise it, those in political positions primarily. The principle of 'fighting to survive and get by in the system' has remained despite any surface appearance of reform or change or improvement. But, in spite of this lack of any actual real change, in spite of the continuation of a money system that runs on debt and greed and inequality, in spite of the successive election of political figures who never actually change anything, who merely speak grand words to sway us to their position, in spite of the fact that simplistically, if we do not obey the rules of the system and generate money we cannot buy a life for ourselves, we cannot buy shelter, food, electricity, clean living conditions, access to information and education, we cannot buy the resources required to maintain a relationship and family, we cannot buy transportation, we cannot buy entertainment or the resources required in order to explore creativity. In spite of all this, we do not acknowledge our obvious lack of any actual freedom of being, any actual freedom of expression, of exploration of ourselves.

Why don't we notice this? Why do we accept our limitation? Common sense: because that which directs our participation in the system, is simplistically our personal desires and dreams of attainment: attainment of relationships, sex, money, comfort, a certain lifestyle, desire to live in a specific place in a specific environment, a certain position of success within the system. And in common sense it is seen that all such desires and dreams are actually supported to exist in us by the system itself - in fact throughout our formative years growing up, we have been programmed to take on these desires and dreams of attainment by movies, television, books, the experiences of others. The simplistic point of common sense in this is that as long as who we are is determined by dreams and desires of attainment programmed into us by the system, by others, then our actions, our participation will be determined by these same desires and dreams of attainment - any actual Self Direction will not exist, because we will be directed by our desires and dreams, and thus the system will never actually change because we will never see what change actually implies, we will never even see what actually exists in this world as a result of the nature of the system that is unacceptable, that requires to be ended - and which can only be ended if 'who we are' as a product of the system, as a robot of desires and dreams of attainment, ends. Because unless we stop existing as products of the system, as long as we are directed by desires and dreams of attainment that can only be fulfilled by participating in the system from the starting point within which it currently exists - no change is possible. Because how can the world change, how can the system change, how can the overall human experience change, unless we ourselves change?

It is common sense that change must be a deliberate action taken, where the one taking action is acting within standing equal and one with change - where one's actions are the living statement, expression, placement of oneself as change. In this way, one moves self as change, one walks as change completely, where one is not standing separate from change in any way, where one has not abdicated responsibility or action for change to another, or to something separate from self such a political party, or a political figure, or a religious figure. When hope or faith is placed in someone or something in the expectation that someone or something other than self will change our lives for us, there is a problem - because in common sense -- if we ourselves remain as products of the system as it exists currently, where who we are is based in desires and dreams of attainment programmed into us by the system as it currently exists, then even if the picture around us changes, even if the surface changes, if the person in power changes, if our environment changes - who we are will remain the same and thus change will not actually happen because in our actions, we will still be living the same as we have been in the past.
When one looks Self Honestly at the last few decades, it is seen that we have not actually changed. We have merely altered and reshaped the appearance and content of some of our desires and dreams of attainment.
The world still exists within the same principles, we ourselves still live within the same principles as we always have - which is the search for the fulfillment of our desires and dreams of attainment. We are in a closed loop, we are evolving the appearance of what we are doing, but what we are doing always remains the same. Our actions only ever reflect our starting point of desires and dreams of attainment.

What will break this closed loop? What will actually force us to change in living action? What will at once be the greatest act of change for the betterment of all humanity, and the end of the world as we know it?
The implementation of an Equal Money system.
Equal Money for all immediately removes the fight for survival in the system - in this, immediately removing the need for anyone to resort to crime, violence, acts of desperation, prostitution, drug and human trafficking - as all of these acts are motivated by lack of money. Equal Money allows all equal access to food, water, clean living conditions, electricity, transportation, all necessary resources which are provided by the Earth for human beings.
But, with the removal of the fight for survival - our starting point of existing solely for the fulfillment of our desires and dreams of attainment as programmed into us by the system which existed within the starting point of survival and inequality, is immediately invalidated - immediately can no more exist. And, with Equal Money for All, what is also removed is the control of the Earth's resources from the starting point of greed and the need to control human beings through money. We will immediately be faced with the realization that Life on Earth does not actually exist as the fight for survival - but that we had created such a 'way of life' simply through our collective agreements and acceptances, and within accepting a definition of life and living defined by survival and getting by for the purpose of trying to attain our desires and dreams through generating money. We will see that the major problems of the world such as starvation, poverty, crime, war, rape, prostitution, greed - had all been the result of how the money system existed, how the system had existed - in which we had all been participating from the starting point of supporting it to continue. Thus, we will see that we ourselves were responsible for the existence of the horrors of this world, simply through accepting survival, and accepting our purpose as the fulfillment of our desire and dreams of attainment through generating money for ourselves.
We will see that all of our words of hope and change had been in vain, had been empty statements, as it will be seen that our actions had always only reflected our continued existence as self interest - as the fulfillment of our desires and dreams of personal attainment through generating money for ourselves.
We will be faced with a serious evaluation of ourselves and the way we live with each other and with the Earth.
With a system of control of the Earth's resources being removed, we will see that it is actually our responsibility to live practically in harmony and equilibrium with the Earth, and with each other. We will finally see with the implementation of Equal Money for All, that what is best for all is actually best for each of us. We will finally see that we had never been free, but rather had been slaves to the limitation of a system of survival that we ourselves collectively had agreed should exist through our physical acts of participation from the starting point of self interest.
We will see that nothing that had been proposed as a 'sustainable solution' was actually valid, as no solution proposed had ever considered what is best for all equally and thus did not support equilibrium and actual sustainability.
We will also see that we have never actually known ourselves, never actually explored ourselves, never seen who we really are or what we have really been doing. But, with the removal of survival, we will finally all equally have the opportunity to begin evaluating, investigating, exploring ourselves. We begin learning what it actually is to Live on Earth.
The past will fade away, will be let go of - because the past will no longer have any value. It will be seen that our entire history was based in self deception and delusion. We will no longer need to hold onto that which used to define us, because everything we experience - relationships, family, expression, work - will change. We will no longer need to preserve the past, because we will see that our past only existed as who we were as programmed products of a system of survival, self interest and limitation.
We will be able to be new for the first time, we will see the world for the first time. We will see ourselves for the first time. We will see each other for the first time. With survival removed, our personal bubble will burst and we will see for the first time that we are all equally here - and that we have always all been equally here. We will forgive ourselves for what we have been, what we have allowed, what we have ignored. We will see that it is possible, in Equality and Oneness, to live without abuse, without violence, without war, without greed, without need, without lack, without desire, without fear, without limitation.
We will begin to see what freedom actually can be as a living reality for all, when all live Equally here as One.

Peer Review in Science Questioned

2009-10-09T12:03:00.000-05:00

Science Wasting Money: Where is the voice of the people?

2009-10-06T06:56:00.000-05:00

As reported by the Belfast Telegraph:
Scientists 'reverse ageing process'
"A way to reverse ageing has been discovered which allows withered muscle to rebuild itself by turning back a “biological clock”.
The effect has already been demonstrated on human muscle tissue in the laboratory.
Scientists in the US believe the breakthrough could lead to new treatments that rejuvenate and strengthen ageing bodies or combat degenerative diseases.
Their findings also underline the importance of staying active for older people, since this reduced age-related muscle loss."
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What practical value does money and time spent on ways to 'reverse the aging process' have, when at this very moment millions of people exist in poverty and without food to nourish themselves? What practical value does money and time spent on prolonging the lives of the elderly of the world have, when at this very moment children are sick and dying of malnutrition and famine? Why is it that poverty, starvation, circumstances of desperation and misery experienced by human beings, is accepted and not given priority attention? Why has a solution not been found to the suffering and death of millions of human beings that occurs at this very moment? Why is 'combating the aging process and retaining a youthful body and appearance given funding and attention as a priority area of scientific research and development? Who is reviewing such research? Who is providing the funds? No doubt, those who would want to prolong their own life. Does not the acceptance of such areas of research and development as having priority over the end of the starvation and death of millions of children, reveal that the majority of the scientific community is not considering the betterment and well being of humanity, despite its claims to be doing so? Does this not reveal that the majority of the scientific community is programmed not to see common sense and consider what actually requires our attention, what actually requires a solution above all else? Does this not also reveal that the majority of human beings are programmed not to see common sense and do not regard the major problems of humanity as priority concerns?
'Peer review' is part of the problem. It is Common Sense that funding and support should be given to those areas of research and development which exist within the starting point of establishing and implementing solutions for the betterment of life for all human beings equally - in this, the primary problems of starvation, lack, non access to electricity, healthcare and education should be given absolute priority within the considerations of those who are reviewing, and deciding the value and attention given to proposed scientific research and development- because it is common sense that until Humanity as a whole sorts out its equilibrium and corrects the current design of the world system which is inequality, self interest and disregard for the suffering of the many in favor of giving attention to the wants and desires of the few with money, that any claim by science to exist for the betterment and well being of Humanity, is a dishonest and delusional statement. However, it is seen that Peer Review, which should be undertaken by a community of human beings as peers, equal in the consideration of what best supports Humanity as a whole in Common Sense, not influenced or limited by personal motives, self definitions, a predefined knowledge base, desires, beliefs or opinions, is rather undertaken by a group of people existing within the same or similar knowledge base and ideology as those submitting their ideas and research for review, yet within the definition of Peer Review it is stated that a community of experts in a given field is required, who are qualified to perform an 'impartial review'. The only impartiality evident, is the impartiality towards what in common sense should be considered within a review of any proposed area of scientific research, funding and development - which is what actually is considering a solution to the priority problems of Humanity at this moment.
It is evident that human beings are programmed to accept science and scientists to exist apart from the rest within their own bubble of superiority as knowledge, and that the majority of human beings to not take it upon themselves to evaluate the starting point of science within seeing what actually considers the betterment of the lives of all Humanity as a whole, as Equals. This reveals that human beings do not take it upon themselves to evaluate their own starting point, and that all exist within the consideration of only their own personal interests, and it is also evident that within the scientific community, the common sense evaluation of one's starting point, is neglected.

What is needed is a community, a group of people that will take it upon themselves to evaluate and purify their own starting point through Self Honesty and Common Sense, and to evaluate the starting point of actions taken by all the major institutions of this world, within the consideration of what actually supports the well being of all Humanity. What is needed is a group of people willing to develop Common Sense in all ways, and to take the action required to spread awareness that there exists a monstrous waste of resources and money within the pursuit of research and development in areas of science and other institutions, resources and money that could be used to achieve an Equal Quality and standard of Life for all humanity.

Living?

2009-10-02T08:34:00.000-05:00

what effect do our lives have on this world? on this physical reality that remains when we die? When we live our life within the consideration of only our own comfort, desires, fears, beliefs, thoughts, feelings within self interest - standing apart from each other, from the rest, apart from the whole in separation from the one reality, the one body we all share, in separation of our actual equality and oneness, within an alternate reality mind bubble, in this giving permission for everyone else to continue existing in self interest, in separation, and thus supporting inequality, disharmony, conflict, neglect and abuse to exist in this world in the name of 'free will', we are doing nothing to prepare the way for those to come into this world. This reveals that we are not actually living, that we do not actually care about sustainability, equality, we do not care about life or this world we find ourselves in, and are not taking responsibility for who we are and how we exist within considering what supports Life in Equality and Oneness as ourselves, and what only supports who we are as self interest and separation within an alternate reality mind bubble that only considers what is best for 'me in separation' within only this one life.
Our self interest and separation is reflected in the nature of the current money system, where the value we give money is equal to that which supports our own comfort, our own desires and feelings, our own fears, our own 'personal' reality. But within out starting point of 'the pursuit of happiness', of generating money to be able to maintain the circumstances of comfort in which we feel we are able to 'choose' how to live, we are blinded by our fear of losing the life we have built, and our desire to live more, our desire for more choice, our desire for a greater feeling of security and safety and comfort, our desire for control over our lives and success in the system - we do not see that we are actually being completely controlled by money. Money dictates if we can live, dictates if we have food, if we have a home, if we have an education, if we have access to entertainment and information. Why accept such enslavement? We the people are the ones who support such a system of money enslavement, of enslavement to the fight for survival, through our acceptances of the system, through the way we have defined life as that which must be bought, through the way we have defined freedom according to what the system shows us - freedom as wealth, freedom as the ability to buy the life that we choose. But how can freedom exist in this world if All are not allowed an Equal Quality of Life? How can freedom exist in this world if money dictates who eats and who starves? How can freedom exist in this world if we fear to be like those who have nothing, and desire to be like those who have more?
It doesn't have to be like this. It is only like this because we agree it should be.
We are the ones who make the rules, and all it takes is common sense and self honesty to see that we can change the rules. But we have to be willing to look beyond the desires and fears that keep us bound to the preservation of 'who we are as self interest' which ensures that we only consider that which supports us to remain comfortable for the rest of this one life while disregarding the rest.
We have learned to exist in separation, in self interest, in alternate reality mind bubbles. we have been programmed to exist this way, through being brought into this world and shown how to be, what to consider and how to participate, by those who went before us. We are thus simply copies of the past.
We can stop ourselves as copies of the past, as self preservation, as desire for more and fear of losing, we can clear our vision and clear our starting point. we can see with common sense that if we agree on a solution that allows All an Equal Quality of Life, where money no longer dictates who lives, but Life dictates how money is used, we can end the fight for survival, end the suffering of those who now starve and exist in desperation, end our limited experience of life and learn to live in equality and oneness with each other and with the world we are in. When all are equally free, then we ourselves are free - that is common sense.
Change is not something that will just happen, we agree what this world should be through what we agree we should be.
The question to ask is: Do I agree on self interest? or do I agree on Equality and freedom for all Life?